Page 25 of Love, In Balance

Flic always reminds me of the cliché behind the group name and it’s helped me overcome many a struggle. She put her thoughts into a poem during her teen years andactually won a poetry contest. It’s her claim to fame and I understand why. She quotes it whenever one of us is going through a tough time, and even printed out mini copies on key rings for us all. I keep mine close to me wherever I go. It’s my own personal source of motivation throughout life and I’m forever grateful that such a random group name inspired such pure and utter beauty in the form of words.

Five Mountains

You see those mountains that seem to reach the sky,

They never thought they could rise so high.

Starting from nothing and rising through disaster,

After thinking they would crumble and sink thereafter.

Continuing to grow when faced with uncertainty,

Never to know how others see them so perfectly.

So when you’re scared of what’s ahead,

And you fear the uphill climb,

Remember you are the mountain,

And incredible things take time.

I’m glad to welcome Quin to this year’s social since it’s his first time. Although we haven’t spoken much personally, for good reason, we have texted about tonight and are hoping to catch up in a less work orientated environment. He told me he was looking forward to seeing me… I’m just not sure how to interpret the signals he gives me.

After we held each other’s hand and shared a longing stare during our first meeting, I’ve been distancing myself to try and avoid anymore of whatever this is between us.

It’s for the best.

I know that Quin is concerned about people’s opinions of him. After what he told me about his journey in lecturing, I understand exactly why he acts the way he does.

He’s a young, handsome member of staff, and it’s clear that hegets unwanted inappropriate attention from students.

You can see it’s something that makes him genuinely uncomfortable, and he’s quick to make sure he’s openly shunting any advances off.

Although, our relationship is a little different I suppose, since we kissed without knowing each-other. And now anything more is clearly off limits.Sad face.Although I really do understand why.

I get so nervous about doing or saying the wrong thing to him during our time off campus, and I’m anxious to make the wrong move in general.

I feel like he flirts back with me, but if I cross the line, I’ll scare him off. So, I’m hanging back and distancing myself from him. If that’sat allpossible.

I’m at home getting ready. Something which I struggle with hugely.

When I’m on campus for studying or working, my attire makes sense.

When I’m at work on the weekends, I wear my work clothes. But when I go out for events or with friends, I hate choosing an outfit.

I struggle with understanding what is too casual or too risqué. You know?

I want to look good, but I don’t want to be overdressed.

It’s difficult being one of the only women in a friendship group, because when I need advice, I’m mostly met with random dude replies that donothelp me.

Flic rarely messages on the group chat, so I’m often stuck. There are many times she’s helped me, but often all I get in situations like this from her on the group chat is a gif. Usually I’m obsessed with them, but times like these I need advice, not hilarious gifs or funny animal videos.

#FiveMountains Group Chat

Lista:Guys, what does one wear to the STEM social this evening? Send help!

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