“Oh! But I was looking forward to those elbow rubs.”
“I think we should save that for your car,” I reply with a laugh.
“Look at you, making plans for us for later. I think this blind date is already a big success.”
I gasp, staring at him with wide eyes. He puts his hands up. “Just kidding. But we could dance, though.”
I agree and we slowly start swaying to the soft music.
Ethan keeps saying silly things and making me laugh. I feel like confessing that I’ve never really ever had a date.Ever.And this is the first time I’m dancing in the middle of a gathering of a hundred people, where anyone could see us together, and he doesn’t mind.
When the music swells, he even dips me, helping me up later with ease. I can’t stop smiling.
The entire evening is perfect.
Later, Jane and Gunner take a cab while Ethan insists on driving me home. Since it’s late, I agree.
Everything is great until we pull up outside my building and he suddenly asks, “What are you doing tomorrow?”
My body freezes.
I must’ve taken too long to answer since he says, “Or maybe tonight could be like our Northern Lights holiday. Tomorrow, we get back home to our daily grind with just a few selfies to show for it.”
I don’t know if it’s the hormones, but my eyes tear up.
“Are you okay?” He looks at me, his eyes crinkling at the corners.
“I’m three months pregnant.” I blurt it out without preamble.
“Wow! That’s huge. Does your friend know about it?”
I shake my head. “I discovered it a week back. I…I don’t know what to do. The father doesn’t want me. He got married two months back. I’m not even sure if I can keep it. I just…”
He leans in closer, gently pushing the hair away from my face and neck. I take a deep breath.
As more tears gather in my eyes, I suck in a few more breaths. “I haven’t had time to even process, but I need to get the procedure done by tomorrow or it’ll be too risky. Like how do I even decide if I keep or let go of a life in only a few days?”
He glances at the dark road for a while before turning to me and handing me a Kleenex. “It sure sounds difficult, but how about you try an experiment.”
I frown, wiping my face.
“Do you have a bathtub?”
I nod.
“So go inside, draw yourself a bath, kick back with some ginger ale, and close your eyes. For five minutes, imagineyour life with a baby one year down the line, and then imagine it without. You’ll have your answer.”
“I feel like I’ve wasted so much of your time,” I tell him as I unbuckle my seatbelt.
“Don’t be silly.”
He jots down his number on a fresh Kleenex and hands it over to me. “Text, call, leave a singing voicemail whenever you feel like it. It would be nice to take another holiday if you’re up for it.”
At two in the morning, I text Jane in tears:
I’m going to be a mom.
CHAPTER 16