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Like my heart was made of glass and had cracked in a dozen places without breaking.

Part of me wanted to just leave Sicily behind forever… to start over again somewhere else…

But I knew I couldn’t.

I wanted him too much.

Even if he only gave me scraps of his time, I couldn’t turn them down.

I looked around the beautiful cave I’d spent the night in – alone.

Everywhere I looked was a reminder of Valentino…

And all the things he’d made me feel when he was here.

This is all I might ever get.

Seeing him in secret…

Fucking him like it’s the last time.

Is that enough?

I sat there for a long time asking myself that question.

I finally decided it was…

If the alternative was I never got to be with him again.

We didn’t have much time left together.

Once he was married, I doubted we would be together anymore.

So… I would take the little I could get, because I couldn’t walk away from him.

Not while I could still kiss him again…

And feel him inside me again.

I got up from the bed with a heavy heart and started packing to go to Cefalù.

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Valentino

Teaching Isabella and Ludavica how to use an iPhone was like trying to teach two time travelers from the 1800s.

It astounded me how little they knew –

But it wasn’t their fault. They’d been closed off from the outside world ever since they were little. Maybe even since they were born.

Anyway, they marveled over how they could see almostanything.

I thought they might start Googling porn – dick pics, maybe –

But they didn’t.

I guess they were too innocent.

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