Page 230 of Mafia Kings: Valentino

Joy.

Anger – likeGET HIM!

And… strangest of all…

A little turned on.

Like,This man is willing to kill for me.

I know it should have horrified me that Val had just killed a man –

But it made me want him even more.

Not like I wanted to throw him down on the bed and jump him right then and there –

But it made meWANThim.

To be with me andonlyme…

Forever.

And when he held me afterwards?

I felt safer and more protected than I ever had in my life.

I couldn’t really explain it.

All I knew was that I wanted Val to get back as soon as possible…

And I never wanted him to leave.

But I knew he would. Eventually.

I thought about what he’d said –

About me about going to find his fiancée.

I mean, I suppose I could describe her to you, but then you’d have to go out and –

My skin crawled at the thought.

I didn’t even know what she looked like, and I didn’twantto know.

As long as she was just a name, then it was almost like she wasn’t real.

I could pretend she was just some character in a story.

But the idea of meeting her?

The woman who was going to get him instead of me?

Who was going to make love to him for the rest of his life –

Wake up to him in the morning –

And have his children?

If it was a choice between her and staying with a corpse, I preferred the dead body.

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