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And I didn’t care what the price was.

I found out too late that Ishouldhave cared about the price…

Because when it came time to pay, it nearly destroyed me.

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Over the next several days, I fell even harder for him.

Not only was Roberto incredibly handsome…

Not only could he fuck like a god…

But he had a real warmth and kindness to him.

Warmth and kindness had been in short supply from most of the men in my past.

And yet, despite Roberto’s carefully controlled exterior, there was an undercurrent of danger to him.

I couldn’t put my finger on it…

And it didn’t come out often…

But it was always there, lurking in the shadows.

The most obvious times were when he used the Voice.

That dominant, dark, commanding tone…

It both thrilled me and frightened me a little.

But there was a part of me thatlikedbeing scared.

There was a part of me thatlikedbeing helpless…

A part of me thatlikedbeing totally and completely at his mercy.

It was almost exactly the feeling I got when I was tied up…

That sensual, sexual feeling of surrender.

I could only have it with someone I trusted…

And yet…

Despite trusting Roberto, I was a littleafraidof him, too.

A little worried he was unpredictable…

A little nervous that he would do something out of the blue.

And yet… I felt completely safe, as well.

I don’t know how to explain it.

It was a contradiction in terms – a delicious tension that kept me guessing.

Unpredictability and stability…

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