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I felt ashamed and frightened.

Ashamed that I had left him –

And frightened that I had just had the best experience of my entire life, completely clothed, with a stranger in a foreign country.

No other man had ever made me feel this way…

And I was worried I would never feel it again.

Nevertheless, my shame overwhelmed my desire.

“No… I need to go,” I said quietly.

He nodded and proceeded to untie me.

He went slowly… methodically…

And every touch of the loosened rope was like a caress. Afterplay rather than foreplay.

When he finished, he helped me to my feet.

I stood there shakily, legs still twitching from my first orgasm – and an incredibly powerful one, I would later find out.

I stared into his kind eyes and whispered, “Thank you.”

He smiled again. “It was my absolute pleasure. If you’re staying in Bangkok for a while, come back and see me. My name is Yeong, and I work here every Tuesday through Saturday.”

I nodded, hypnotized by his gaze, and walked out of the room.

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As I walked through the pounding music of the club, I completely ignored the naked flesh all around me.

I was consumed with guilt.

I had just had the best sex of my life, and not with my boyfriend.

Although –

Was itreallysex if neither of us had been naked?

He hadn’t been inside me.

I hadn’t even seen his penis.

And yet, I knew that was all a rationalization.

I’d just had sex…

And it had beenamazing.

Far better than any experience with any other man I’d been with –

And a hundred times better than with my current boyfriend.

My face flushed hot with shame.

I hated the fact that my boyfriend was probably looking for me right now, worried out of his mind –

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