Page 32 of Cruel Dreams

She’s so wet, her cum drips down my wrist. My cock feels like it’s going to explode, but I force myself to calm down. I kiss my way up her belly, over her breasts, and to her mouth. I want her to taste how lovely she is. I devour her lips, undo her bra, and toss it aside.

“Get into bed.”

I unbutton my shirt and drop it to the floor, take off my pants and kick them in the general direction of my shirt, and pull off my briefs and socks. I slip between the cool sheets and wrap my body around hers. She hugs me, and I press my lips to her shoulder to keep a desperate cry of relief bottled up. Any moment I expect her to push me away, declare me too much work, too much trouble.

That’s all I’ve caused her, I know that. When we met and I saw how she lived, how she worked for every ounce of happiness, I vowed I’d make her life easier.

I never fulfilled that promise.

Stella takes control and kisses my jaw and along my neck, pulling my skin between her teeth. The tiny bit of pain zips along my nerves. Maybe she’ll give me a hickey, but she doesn’t linger long enough, kissing down my chest and flicking my nipples with the tip of her tongue. She grips my erection in her hand, and her fingers are warm and strong. I push myself into her grasp.

She glides her hand up and down, and I moan. I don’t want to come like this, but I missed her so much, I’m not going to last much longer.

Her head disappears under the sheet, and I drag in a breath as her lips cover the tip of my cock. Her tongue swirls at the head, tasting the pre-cum there, and I clutch the bedspread, my hips lifting, encouraging her to take more.

She does, enveloping almost all of me inside her hot mouth.

That can’t be easy—I’m harder than I’ve been in a long time. “Careful, Stella,” I bite out, but I don’t know if it’s for her benefit or mine.

She continues to suck and fists the base of my cock, caressing my balls with her other hand.

“Not this way,” I gasp. I want to be inside her.

She licks at me again, then pushes the sheet away. Crawling up my body, she moves to be on top, but I reverse our positions. I think about grabbing a condom, but she has her period and I don’t need it. I want to feel her without anything between us—there are so few times I get to do so.

Settling between her legs, I gently push into her as she grabs my forearms, tilting her hips. She’s exquisite, and I grit my teeth, giving her a moment to adjust. I’ll always be ashamed of the way I treated her in the past, and no amount of gentleness will erase what I’ve done. But from now on, every time we make love, I’ll try.

Her muscles hug me, and the tip of my cock nudges her center. We’re as close as two people can possibly be. It will never be enough. “Is this okay?”

She hisses out a breath. “Yeah, just . . .”

I withdraw, but she grips my ass and holds me in place. “No. I like it.”

“Tell me if it’s too much.” I lower myself onto her and hold her, my face buried in the soft curve of her neck.

She kisses my bicep.

“I love you, Stella.” The words seem inadequate. I mean so much more than what the definition of love is. I want to treasure her, protect her, do everything in my power to make her happy.

She’s my whole world.

Without her, I would be no one.

“I love you too,” she whispers.

“I pray to God you always will.”

A quick succession of short, forceful thrusts is all I need to come, and I cry my pain against her skin.

“Shh, shh,” she hushes into my ear, and she holds me until the shudders and the tears stop.

I nuzzle her lips, cradling her body, trying like hell to tell her what’s in my heart with my touch. “Did I hurt you?”

“No, it was perfect.”

She scrubs her fingers over my wet whiskers, and I turn my head to press a kiss to her palm. “Let’s clean up.”

In the bathroom, I blot at the faint streaks of blood on the insides of her thighs using a warm, wet washcloth, but we’re not as messy as she feared we would be. I’m a little disappointed when she puts on my shirt and finds her panties on the floor, but I realize she put a pad in them. I guess I can’t expect her to sleep without protection.

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