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Chapter Four

Kali

Riding Noah is something I've fantasized about doing on and off throughout my life.

He didn't disappoint.

I thought getting it out of my system would give me a reprieve from my thoughts constantly wandering to him, day and night, wondering what it would be like. But instead, I'm eager to go again, to take and take and take from him everything I've wanted from a man. The look on his face confirms for me that he wouldn't mind me being so selfish.

'There's nobody else,' he says, and I lift my head to look at him properly.

'What do you mean?'

'I only want you, Kali. Forever.' He has turned to face me, and I can only see honesty in his eyes, along with an earnest hope that I feel the same way.

I try not to let the panic engulf me. 'Forever is a long time, Noah.' It comes out as a squeak of a whisper.

'I know, it feels like forever that I've loved you.'

Love?

I stand and grab my clothes, my top is easy to spot, and my jeans. My thong on the other hand has done a disappearing act so pull my jeans on without it.

'What are you doing?' he asks, bewilderment scrunching his brow as he sits up. His body looks tremendous in the light being thrown from the fire.

'Getting dressed,' I say, pointing out the obvious. 'Can you take me back to Lora's please?' He breaks eye contact, trying to mask the disappointment on his face.

'Yes,' he says grabbing his clothes and pulling them on. Regret pulls in my stomach at seeing him cover-up, seeing him look confused and hurt.

'Noah...' I don't know what to say, how to explain it.

'It's okay Kali,' he cuts me off. ‘I've waited this long. I can wait longer. However long you need.'

'You shouldn't have to wait, and I don't know how long it will be.' It's the truth.

'Come on, let’s get you back to the house and we can talk about it tomorrow.'

The house is in darkness when we arrive. It's almost midnight so Lora could still be out, or she could have made her way back and gone to bed. I want to kiss Noah goodbye but I'm not sure if I should. So instead, I wait for him as he rounds the car and holds out his hand for me to take.

'I'll be coming around tomorrow, after work,' he says as I let myself into the house, leaving no room for argument.

'Okay,' I smile, despite feeling confused about the predicament I've put myself in. It's not that I don't love Noah, I do. I've been attracted to him ever since I was a teenager and that has only grown over the last year into an intense desire. But how can I trust that he won’t change the minute I agree to let myself fall for him completely?

I can't.

I need to get my head sorted.

Noah

Only Kali could leave me feeling like all my insides are twisted up. Telling her how I feel was a mistake, I know, but I don't want to ever lie to her. I will never lie to her. It's the only way she can learn that she can trust me. That I'm not the same as her ex-husband.

I drop onto the sofa and stare at the space in front of the fire. The memory of her riding me, her breasts bouncing, has me hard and wanting her again. More than that, I want everything afterwards with her too.

There’s a prickle on the back of my neck, doubt about whether we did the right thing, whether I’m inadvertently rushing Kali, making her nervous. Or worse, afraid.

I text Lora.

Can you let me know if Kali is okay?

I wait, staring at my phone as a bubble pops up on the screen.

Yeah, I’ll be heading back soon.

The prickle at the back of my neck turns into something bigger and migrates to my gut. Something isn’t right. I think back to dropping Kali at the house. What is it that is setting off an internal alarm? I grab my keys and head back to Lora’s, mulling over every detail in my head.

It wasn’t quite midnight. It was dark. The porch light was off and there were no lights on inside the house…the alarm in my head has become a full-blown siren. And then it hits me and I’m kicking myself and smacking the steering wheel. Anger for allowing myself to become so distracted by Kali that my guard dropped, and I didn’t notice something so obvious has my blood pumping hot. I dial Lora’s number and shout for her to bring Rhys and Judd to her place NOW.

Because Lora always leaves a light on.

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