Page 110 of His Boys to Protect

“What?” Skylar gasped. “No! Charlie, no.” He touched Charlie's hands. His knees. His hair. Then he tried gently tugging on him, but Charlie refused to budge. “Charlie? You're not bad at it.”

Charlie nodded without looking up.

“You're not,” Skylar repeated. “It feels good, being with you. It does,” Skylar insisted.

Charlie lifted his head slightly and scowled.No orgasm.

“You're right,” Skylar quietly admitted. “But Charlie? That's not the most important thing. It's not,” he repeated when Charlie ducked his head again. “Charlie, I love having sex with you because it's withyou. Because I love you. And you're my best friend. Because I don't feel dirty and used when I'm with you.”

Charlie shook his head.I use you.

“No, you're not. Just because you come and I don't, doesn't mean you're using me. Charlie? I mean it. You are my sanity. My safety. My escape from my life. Being with you is liberating. I feel alive when I'm with you. Like a person. Not just a hole for somebody's cock.”

Charlie rolled his head as he silently considered that.

Ward shifted, getting ready to stand. He didn't belong in this conversation. Hell, he didn't belong with these two boys at all. They were in a relationship, and he was just a third wheel. He opened his mouth to quietly excuse himself, then stopped when Charlie signed again.

Ward?

Skylar frowned. “What about Ward?”

He give you orgasm.

Skylar winced. “Yeah, he does.”

Always?Charlie asked.

“Yeah.”

Charlie sat still and silent for a moment.You like sex with Ward more?

Skylar tensed. He glanced from Charlie to Ward and back. “Shit. It's not–” He shook his head, looking lost. “Fuck. How do I explain this?” he finished, muttering to himself.

Charlie scowled.Yes or no.

Skylar breathed a laugh. “Things aren't always that simple, Charlie. I wish they were.” He paused, holding his breath. “It's…different. I like it with both of you. Either of you. You both make me feel really good. The same, but different. I mean…” Skylar scrubbed his hands over his face. “Okay, yes, Ward makes me come. But even without that, I like being with him. Both of you make me feel wanted. And clean. I've never had to fake my enjoyment of being with either of you.” Just as Charlie lifted his hands to sign something, Skylar rushed on. “Yes, I've faked my orgasms with you, but I've never faked enjoyingyou. I've never had to grit my teeth and force on a smile, pretending I wanted you inside me when all the while I felt sick and on the verge of screaming because my whole body felt so fucking violated.”

Ward's heart clenched.Geez, Sky. He stared at the boy, seeing the years' worth of pain and endurance starting to really show behind his eyes.

Even Charlie must have seen it. Or maybe heard it in Skylar's voice. The boy tensed, his shoulders rising as he kept hugging his knees to his chest.You never say no to me.

“Because I've never not wanted you inside me, Charlie,” Skylar murmured. “Same with Ward. Not once. Being with you guys is a gift. I can be myself with you instead of putting on some kind of act. It's like…you're giving me my body back. I would rather have that feeling than an orgasm any day of the week. For the rest of my life,” he quickly added.

Charlie rolled his head. He was silent for a long while, not looking at either of them.

Ward glanced at Skylar. The boy was holding his breath, bracing for Charlie's response. Ward slowly reached out and touched Skylar's hand.

Charlie's roaming glance darted over, zeroed in on their contact.

Ward pulled away.

“Hhnn.” Charlie scowled. He reached out, grabbed Ward's hand, and put it right back on Skylar's. The boy hesitated there, not letting go, touching them both. With his free hand, he signed,Ward?

Ward braced himself. “Yeah, buddy?”

Charlie blushed.You teach me make my Sky feel good?

Ward felt a pang in his chest. If he helped these boys develop a stronger relationship, where would that leave him?

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