Page 92 of Finding Closure

And suddenly, I wanted to get lost in him. I gave him a look that I hoped he understood and like I wasn’t trying to be crass or a jerk.

“Always, cream puff,” he whispered against my temple. “Just tell me yes and I’ll take care of everything. I’ll take care of you. Just get us to where you want us to be.”

Perfect. That sounded perfect. I wanted to feel good and get lost in Lucca after the pain and grief.

At least for a little while.

I actually took us to my vacation castle since it popped into my mind and I knew it wouldn’t have as many people taking care of it now.

“You really like this place,” he muttered after glancing around.

“The vibe of it and the land is just—something in my core likes it,” I admitted before angling my head for a kiss.

“You won’t get mad at me later for being a horny bear, right?” he worried.

“I promise. Make me feel good, Lucca.”

He searched my eyes. “Gentle. You want gentle.”

I did, and I loved that he now always checked and made sure that we were on the same page. It healed all the hurt he’d ever made me feel when he did that.

He kissed me deeply but didn’t rush anything. It was slow and sensual like we had all of the time in the world.

I blinked and we were naked, so lost in the kiss that I hadn’t been paying attention to where the clothes went. He laid me on the bed and kissed every inch of me. It was almost painful it was so titillating and lazy at the same time. He chuckled when I whimpered or tried to get him to move on.

“You are my favorite cream puff to eat and taste cream from,” he murmured before moving between my legs.

Only a man as sexy as Lucca could seriously get away with such cheesy lines. For real, I always thought one day I would roll my eyes or get tired of them.

But not yet. It made me squirm to have such a sexy man focused on me like that and all about devouring me in the best way.

He ate me twice like I was the best meal ever and then pushed up, spreading my legs wider with his thighs. He studied me for a bit and gave me a soft kiss. “This is enough for me if you—”

“This is perfect,” I promised, throwing my arms around him and pulling him down for another kiss. I gasped as he pushed inside of me, my body more than ready for the fun and attention it had been missing. It felt so much extra after the break of not having sex and also having felt too bad for so long.

Plus, Lucca was the one person who could always pull me out of the darkness. I’d said it time and time again. All of my guys had their roles and things they were best at.

Lucca was the one who could bring me back into the light no matter how upset or sad I’d been. He was the one who made me look forward to seeing another day and that I was alive.

And I wanted him to feel that. I really did. I wanted him to know how much he meant to me in that way. My magic danced around me, wanting to help, and I gave permission—finally at the point where there were no mistakes or misunderstandings. We were the team.

Lucca immediately felt it, getting breathy and his eyes going wide. “Tams, did you…”

I nodded. Unable to say that I’d given him a piece of my soul for some reason. It felt too weird to say.

“I love you, Tamsin Vale,” he whispered and kissed me fiercely. He took me with such passion—but still gently—that I felt tears burn in my eyes. This was what I’d always hoped for with Lucca. Not the sex, but the feeling we were a team too. It was us.

Us who had a future because we really cared about and respected each other.

I cried out as I finished and he followed me over, thrusting deeply into me until I had another small orgasm.

“Stupid bear,” I teased, smiling when he did.

“I’m your stupid bear,” he rasped, tears in his eyes. “You gave me a piece of your soul. I feel it, cream puff. I feel it inside of me like I feel Harry. He’s so excited that you love us and we didn’t ruin everything. We can be happy with you like we always wanted.” He used the back of his hand to wipe his eyes. “From the moment I saw you in the cafeteria, I just knew…”

“What?” I asked, rubbing my hand over his face. “You knew what?”

“My life would be better,” he admitted. “My life would be better with you in it. Yes, you were beautiful and I was attracted to you. It wasn’t about that though. I just knew you were supposed to be in my life. I felt that when I met Hudson too. Like my life would be sad without him.” He gave me a soft kiss. “More than us being lovers, you’re both my best friends.”

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