Page 153 of Muted

Nodding once, I exit the bathroom and flip the light off as I step into the hallway. Walking softly toward the living room where I know they’re waiting for me; I pause just before they see me. I stand there, still and quiet, taking in the distorted sounds as their voices trickle through the low buzzing in my ears.

For just a moment, my throat tightens, and I find myself, once again, mute. Rubbing my hand over my throat, the act it both familiar and unfamiliar. It’s been two years since I’ve fought the ache of my muscles closing up on me, rendering me speechless.

They are the ones who relieved me of this pain, and I’ll forever be thankful for that. It’s not why I love them, but I can add it to the long list of reasons I’m in love with them.

My guys. My men.

My future.

Taking that step into the room, they all stop speaking and turn toward me. There’s no stopping the corner of my lip from curling up as I take each one of them in. All so different from each other, but equally as important to me.

Reaching down, I pull my shirt over my head and stand before them naked from the waist up. I stare each one of them in the eye before saying, “I want you to love me.”

They all move as one. Ofcourse, Theo is the first one to have his clothes removed, and Chester is picking me up in his arms to carry me to the center of the living room.

I melt under their attentions, moaning as they touch and fuck me, making me forget everything before them. The way they worship me, today especially, has rewritten our future together. We needed this to be finished, to finally be free.

“I love you,” I gasp into the room, knowing I can never tell them enough what they mean to me, but also knowing that my words will never be enough. I can never tell them enough how much they mean to me. They’ve always been there, even from that first moment when I walked into the bar.

It fills me with so much joy and devotion to know that throughout all of my self-imposed silence, they could hear me whispering my undying love to them. It only took freeing myself from the monsters to open my heart and hear them screaming the words back.

These men… my loves… gave me the safety to use my voice. I’ll be damned sure to use it forever to sayI love you.

They’ve given me back my voice.

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