Page 15 of But I'm Still Standing

“What if he takes her in retaliation?” I need to know if she is okay.

“Oh God. Your perfect little Magnolia June is doing her duty. You can’t protect her from the world anymore. She has been chosen and you will let her go. Christian knows he isn’t her father. When Sebastian chose Charlotte to be his covenant, he thought he had the right to fuck her then. He was never right in the head. If I had a hand in raising him, things might have turned out different for everyone. This is your last chance with the Saints, or you will never be anything more than a trainer. It’s time you take care of business.” She looks at me like she almost feels bad.

“You did what you had to do with Charlotte, I know. Sylvia is the one who ultimately betrayed you, along with Augustine. You said that the Saints want to see how this plays out. They want Christian, which means he will get Savvy in the end, but only if he figures it out in time. Your precious Christian is going to lose. The plan will continue. When he finally shows up, I get to be the one to kill him. You will get what you want in the end, but at what cost? I won’t give everything up for you to choose him again!” I get up and storm out of her office and make my way to mine.

I pour bourbon filling my tumbler. I down it, then another, and another. I know what I have to do.

I place the decanter on the glossy black coffee table and relax back into the soft leather couch, remembering how I trained Lottie.We were just kids, but I fell in love with her. She had a smart mouth and she absolutely loved sucking my dick. Bash had been prepping her already, so it wasn’t difficult to get her to comply with everything I wanted to do to her. I learned what made her body come to life over the year she was with me. I taught her to embrace pain and make it something so much better.

She came to love me too, I think. With women you never really know if it’s an act or real. Women are wired to be conniving to get what they want. If they have a nice pair of tits and a decent face, they have it made. Just like my mother does.

Charlotte was innocent and sweet at first. Since she was already pregnant, I was allowed to use every hole she had in any way I saw fit. My mother and Mark always made sure I knew that the sky was the limit and wanted me to use my imagination. They watched and made sure that I didn’t go too far for a while, until they felt I could go on my own with her. I loved her, I just wanted to be with her. Mark figured out that I wasn’t training her anymore first. Then we both had hell to pay.

I think back to my first meeting with Lottie. It wasn’t my first time, and I knew what to do, but I was nervous. I jacked off three times that day to make sure I didn’t nut too fast. She was lying on my bed with her arms tied above her head, a black ball gag was placed in her mouth. She wore a matching baby pink panty and bra set with her long black hair splayed out, a vast contrast to the silky white sheets. She hadn’t started showing yet, but I knew she was already pregnant. The way she looked up at me with those beautiful blue eyes. The way she tried to smile with the gag in her mouth when I dropped my towel and climbed on the bed with her that first night. Fuck, she was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen, and she was all mine.

I am hard as a rock thinking of how many times I fucked her that night. She enjoyed it too by the time the night was over with. She passed out with my cum leaking out of her mouth, ass, and pussy. Shewas mine and I made sure to mark her as such. I took a sharpie and wrote Max across her forehead before I had Mark come and take her to her room.

As a Saint you are brought up to believe women are pets or covenants and should be treated as such. Sylvia brought Charlotte here knowing Fiona wanted blood for Sylvia ratting her out to her husband. They had both been unfaithful to their husbands, but when push came to shove Sylvia ratted out Fiona to Augustine to save her own ass when Fiona caught them fucking in his office. Luckily Mark was the one ordered to end my mother’s life. Had he done what was ordered, I wouldn’t be here, and Sylvia would be the one running the pet stockyards instead of Fiona. It’s funny how things work out.

Being with Savvy in the birthing room brought back so many memories of Lottie and I in that room. I was with her when she found out that she was having a girl. I was with her for everything, even MJ’s birth. I held her first. I was a kid who promised the girl he loved that he would protect her daughter. That I would make sure she would be okay. Fiona raised her to be a pet instead of a covenant. There was nothing that I could do about it, but I know no matter what, she will be loved and taken care of once she marries Alec. My promise will be fulfilled. Will promises made to me be fulfilled or will I get screwed over by the one person who should have loved me more? I won’t let Savvy die just because she isn’t cooperating with Fionas plan. She will serve me, and she will want to. If Savannah dies, it will be when I fucking say so. We still have plenty of time. I really hope it doesn’t come to that, again.

I have thought of Lottie so much since Savannah has been here. They are very similar. I smile wide as I wonder if they will have the same kinks. I down another drink and slam the glass down and get up, deciding it’s time for Savvy to start doing her duty.

Chapter 10

Savvy

26 Weeks

MJ should have been back by now. I know I’m pacing my room, but I can’t help it. Has Sin seen the playlist I have been adding to since Max let me have a Smart TV to watch shows and listen to music? My blood pressure has been up a bit, and since my incident, I’m supposed to be resting. I had permission to log into my account and make the playlist. Fiona thought it would be a good twist on her game and would help Christian deal better with me being gone.They want him to see it.

Max has let me have the run of the house now as long as I don’t go outside without him or one of the guards if he isn’t available. Like I can do anything without five of them up my ass. It’s not like I can run morons. Not that I haven’t thought about it. I just know I wouldn’t get far enough to make it out.

Sin has no idea who Fiona is, and I don’t know if he will listen to MJ long enough to figure it out, he is stubborn, I know that.

According to Fiona, he has completely lost it, killing at least twenty of her subjects, as she always calls them. She really thinks she is a fucking queen. My first meeting with her was the same day I met MJ. We were at the stables, which is my favorite place now. Sunny is a beautiful Appaloosa with similar markings to one of my horses back in Oklahoma. The stables have become an escape for me. She ismajestic and I think she knows I’m pregnant. Out of all the horses they have, I’ve bonded with her the most. I will take her with me when I leave. I don’t know how, but I will. Fiona said I could have her.I know she is blowing smoke up my ass. Bitch doesn’t realize that this isn’t my first rodeo. I act appropriately around her. Sugar always gets you more than vinegar.

We have been spending a lot of time together this week. She was impressed at how quickly I put two and two together on who she really is. Max gave a lot away, but she doesn’t hold back. She slapped me the first moment we met, then she hugged me, and said that was all the punishment I deserved for ridding the earth of Sebastian. I didn’t budge. I took it and smiled at her. It felt good to finally feel something when all I’ve been doing is trying not to feel. When I let my emotions get the better of me and feel all the things around me, I open my mouth and that gets me in trouble every time. She liked my fire and said I had more of a fighting spirit than any other Bennett she had ever known. She knows everything about me. Apparently, my mother originally gave me to Fiona, same as she made Charlotte do with MJ, but my father begged her to let him take me. I was never supposed to leave Louisiana, but when she talked to my dad, he promised to keep me hidden and not let Sylvia ever get to me. Everyone knew Fiona was alive except the people who should have known all along.

She made me open up about how I grew up, what I went through with Bash, how I met Sin, and how the girls and I planned his death behind the guys back over a bowl of gumbo and French bread at lunch. She already knew every detail of how we got him there and what we did, how she knows I don’t know. She just wanted to hear it from my perspective.

I think I have somehow now become her pet as well as Max’s. She has a way about her, and I now know that she won’t hurt me, yet. I wasn’t sure at first, but I think I’m a lifeline. I know I have been part of her plans for a long time and I’m starting to get it. She hasn’t opened up about why she faked her death, but I know she will intime, and it will help me make sense of things. She has her reasons I’m sure, just like I had mine when we killed Bash. I just can’t figure out her end game. She has already promised she won’t take my baby from me when he is born. It doesn’t mean she won’t try eventually, but who knows.

I hear the lock on my door and quickly sit on the bed, so I don’t get in trouble for being up. Max has been ridiculous about me resting, eating enough, and getting appropriate exercise. MJ has been the one bit of light I have had this past week. She is a victim and doesn’t even realize it. Her being a pet is all she has ever known since she was little with Uncle Mark. He started her early when Fiona finally gave into her being homeschooled. She didn’tprotect her or stop it in any way. She may technically be a virgin, but she is no virgin. The things that they have done to her are unspeakable. The thing is, MJ has been conditioned not only to do whatever they ask of her, but she has been conditioned to crave it. I get it, I did once too, still do sometimes if I’m being honest with myself.

Max comes in and I don’t look up. I know it’s him by the sound of his oxfords on the hardwood.

“What’s wrong, sweetheart?”He asks with a condescending tone.

“I thought MJ would be back by now.” I sigh, I don’t care if I seem desperate to know how Sin is. I am! She got to see him, touch him, smell him, and hear his voice!

“Come on, she is downstairs. She has a couple of surprises for you. Fiona wanted to cheer you up and has something special for you as well.” His smile is fake, and he sounds uninterested in whatever they have done. I don’t think he particularly likes having to share me with anyone else. He has been a bit on edge since MJ and Fiona have been here so much this week staying with me.

“Do you not want me to be cheered up?” I ask with my bottom lip pushing out to pout slightly and tilt my head, trying to get at least a smirk out of him.

“I would prefer you to be happy because I gave you that happiness, not anyone else. Don’t pout unless you are on your kneesbegging for my cock, sweetheart, my patience with you is thinning.” His voice is cold as he takes in my expression and smirks. He looks evil for the first time since I have been here. I knew this was too good to be true. He wants me and there is nothing I can do about it.

Can I survive this? Another man touching me, will he actually try with me being pregnant? Will he hurt me or Kohl if I try to refuse him? My thoughts are swirling in my head making me nauseous.

---