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I nod feeling like I’m being moved by a conveyor belt instead of by my own two feet. Jasper escorts me to the bathroom and moves me over to the sink and mirror. My white collared shirt is now mostly red. I take my shirt off and start to wash my hands as I watch her blood swirl in the sink. I shake my head, knowing that there is in fact a chance that one or both of them may not be okay. I take a deep breath and let it out as the bathroom door flies open and the guy from outside, Brixon, comes in holding a large plastic bag and tosses it to me!

“Figured we are about the same size. Now get yourself together, incoming Saints wanting to make sure you are okay. Don’t show emotion! They hate that!” He says as he goes back out of the bathroom as fast as he comes in!

“Who the fuck was that?” Jasper gives me a questionable look.

“He introduced himself outside. He’s a Saint. Not sure what his agenda is, he is from Florida.” I explain as I hand Jasper the business card he gave me outside.

“I have actually heard of this guy; he is apparently some big shit real estate guy in Florida. He just took over his dads’ legacy. Saints & Sinners.” Jasper holds up the card shaking his head, “I went once and it’s an experience for sure.”

I look at my best friend like he has grown two heads. “What, ask Joe, he went to! He got us in, apparently, he is friends with Brixon.” He tries to explain why we are having this conversation now, as if I expect him to explain.

“Right now, I don’t give a fuck who this guy is! I just need to get back to Savvy and know her and the baby are goingto be fine. I’m sure he is a good guy, and tell him thanks for the clothes, they at least fit. I look in the mirror at myself, cleaned of all the blood. We are about the same size, I guess. The jeans are a little tighter than I would prefer, but I’m not complaining, at least the sweatshirt isn’t skintight.

We exit the bathroom as the girls all surround Dr. Cowan. I rush over to where he stands and he gives me a small smile and nod, “Savvy and Elijah are just fine! She had a small placental abruption. We were able to stop the bleeding and Savvy is resting comfortably now, but I would like to keep her at least overnight to make sure she is out of the woods. She will be put on a much stricter bedrest protocol. Absolutely no stress, and she needs to stay hydrated. I’m giving her extra fluids, but you need to push her to drink more water and stay down until at least thirty-six weeks. The baby is looking good at almost five pounds. If she has anything else like this, we will have to deliver sooner than expected. With her being such a high-risk pregnancy at this point, it’s better that she delivers here in the hospital. I know this is not what you or she wanted to hear, but it’s what’s best for them both.”

Chapter 22

Savvy

34 Weeks

Ihave been laid up for two weeks and I hate it! I thought it was bad having to be stuck in the hospital for a few days, but being stuck in bed in your own home and coddled like an infant is just ridiculous. The bleeding has completely stopped, I’m taking the medication and drinking nothing but water. I feel great! I want to finish the baby’s room and finish off the motherfuckers down in the caves. Sin is just being cautious, and I get it, but I want to finish this on my terms. I have done everything I have been told and have not had even one contraction since. They gave me steroids to help the baby’s lungs develop faster and I’m getting antsy just sitting here when there is so much still left to do.

“Good morning, angel, I brought you your favorite breakfast.” Sin sets the tray on the bed over my lap, and I ignore him as I continue to flip through Netflix, trying to find anything appealing. New Years came and went with me in bed. I feel like I’m a prisoner all over again.

“Come on, talk to me. I’m not the bad guy here.” He says and something in me snaps.

“The bad guy! No, he is down in the fucking caves, and I can’t do shit about it! Don’t ever say those words to me again, Christian!” I throw the apple from the tray at him as I let out a scream.

He ducks and thankfully the apple misses his head, but smashes into the TV making a huge crack down the center! I burst out crying, realizing what I just did, and now having nothing to watch. I guess I’ll just keep reading the journals Sin found in the apartment where they found Max.

“I get that you are sick of this, but I didn’t do it. No one is to blame. That’s all I was trying to say.” He tries to talk some sense into me.

I let out a huff and just let the tears fall, “I’m just so uncomfortable. My hips hurt. I can’t sleep. Every time I try to roll, it hurts. I just want to get up for a little while and see if I can tolerate a little walking. I need out of this room!” I start to yell again as he sits next to me on the bed, cupping my face.

“How about I take you downstairs for breakfast, and if you can tolerate that, we can go down to the caves so you can direct this shit at someone who deserves it! Deal, angel?” He raises my face to look him in the eyes.

“Deal! I know it’s not your fault, I’m sorry I keep taking it out on you.” I reply, letting him in a bit instead of pushing him away. He tries to hold me at night, or just make this time more pleasant, and I won’t let him. I’m mad at the world right now and he just keeps getting stuck with my attitude. He kisses my forehead, nose, then lips and I can’t help the little butterflies that dance in my belly as he lets the kiss get deeper. I want him so much, but I can’t have him!

“Lay back and relax angel, doctor said if you are feeling better today, that I can help keep your blood pressure down by giving you a release.” Sin helps me lay back as he pulls my panties down my legs and tosses them on the floor.

“Maybe bedrest does have its perks.” I relax back into the mountain of pillows as Sin slowly parts my legs and kisses up my inner thigh. My legs tremble at the excitement building in my core. He slowly licks up my pussy, finding my clit and immediately flicking it with his tongue. His hands cup under my ass as he pulls me down further on the bed, almost growling into my pussy as he licks andsucks my clit. My body jerks as my hips start to move, grinding my pussy in his face. He slips in a finger, and I can’t help but moan, “Christian, don’t stop, oh God, I want your cock so bad.” My words are breathy, and low, but they make Sin growl into my cunt again as he adds another finger and sucks harder on my clit. I moan and thrash my arms above my head, holding onto a pillow for dear life as my vision blurs and my orgasm takes over, making me feel as if I’m floating. Sin doesn’t relent until my body goes completely limp, unable to take anymore.

Sin kisses up my belly and chest until he finds my lips, giving me the sweetest most loving kiss.

“I love you, angel, and I will do this as many times as you need until I can have you again.” He says as he rests his forehead against mine.

“I love you too, soon I’ll be able to return the favor without you worrying I’ll go into labor.”

“Soon I’ll be able to give you my cock like you keep begging for angel, and then you can have it forever, whenever you want. I’m excited for it too, don’t think I’m not counting the days! Come on my love, let me give you a bath before I take you downstairs. You might need another release before breakfast!”

Savvy is making not being able to fuck her the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I want her all the time, just as much as she wants me. I love her pregnant body and how she begs for my dick. I took a shower while she finished in the bath so I wouldn’t have to walk around with blue balls all day. She doesn’t want to have the baby until I’m able to make love to her again. She can’t stand the thought of the last dick being in her not being mine. It still tears me apart that she still has that in her head. One thing about bedrest, we have had plenty of time to talk through all of her emotions. She finally let me know all the horrible things that happened in that house. I bought it from theSaints just so she can burn it down. She fantasizes about it all the time. I can now give her that when the time comes. It’s a surprise for her when she finally finishes everyone off in the caves. I’m going to let her burn all her demons, once and for all.

“Ready to go downstairs?” Savvy asks as she comes out of the closet in leggings and an oversized, even for her pregnant belly, sweatshirt.

I rush over to her picking her up, making sure she doesn’t overexert herself. She squeals as I lift her off the ground, kissing her as her hair fluffs around in our faces. She giggles and I can’t express how much I love her, no matter how hard I try. I walk us out of our bedroom and down the hallway, kissing her as we move swiftly past the library so she can’t protest and go down now. She needs to eat. She just laughs, as I continue to make our way to the main dining room. I text Jasper to have the girls set everything up for a family meal.

Savvy has been hateful to everyone, including Cami, which she takes in stride. I remember Cami being bitchy at the end of her pregnancy too, so she gets it.

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