Page 51 of Blaze & Ajax

“I’m so sorry. I wish I’d known.”

He gave me a small smile and shrugged again. “Sam doesn’t like talking about it. He didn’t want anyone to know. I, ah… had told Alpha, and Sam found out. He was really upset with me. God, I was so scared he was going to leave me when he walked out that door the other day. As you know, I chased after him when I got hit. He’s been guilty about it ever since, and it’s useless to tell him otherwise, but I think his guilt also helped push him to meet his fears head-on.”

“Well, we all love you and Pip, no matter what you’ve all been through. Our pasts may define us, but that doesn’t make us weak or bad people. We would’ve supported Pip if he’d told us. We would’ve shown he wasn’t alone, but I get that our pasts are hard to talk about sometimes.”

That right there reminded me of Blaze and his story, and that I was the only one who knew the extent of it, except for his high school buddy. It suddenly hit me hard how much trust he had in me to tell his story.

Nacho nodded as he took a large bite of his food. “I know,” he said with his mouth full. “How about you? You keep losingweight, Ajax.”

“Yeah, I know. Eating… It’s meh. I just haven’t had much of an appetite. It’s like I’m hungry, but eating is a chore, and it all tastes… bland for some reason. But I’m trying.”

Not to mention, Blaze had been practically force-feeding me lately, but I wasn’t about to tell Nacho that.

He eyed me with those chocolatey-brown eyes of his. “And… how about Blaze?” he asked carefully.

I wanted to laugh. I was sure our friends figured it out. Hell, Cueball already knew, but I wasn’t about to open up about it unless I had Blaze’s permission. He was the secretive one. Regardless, I really didn’t know how to define us yet.

“What about him? He’s fine, I guess.”

“You two are… fighting less,” he hedged.

“Yeah, well, we can’t fight forever.”

“You sure there’s nothing going on between you two?”

“Wow, you surearebored with all your needling questions. Eat and have a praline while I get your kitchen clean. It’s a disaster in there.”

Nacho frowned and pouted. “Fine, don’t tell me.” He waved me off, and I headed to the kitchen to do what I came here to do.

After I got their apartment sorted out and Pippin relaxed, I headed home and rubbed one out, thinking of Blaze. We had plans again, but not until this Thursday, which was five days away still. I was itching to have him under me again. I couldn’t fucking get enough.

I didn’t have anythingspecial to record with, only my cheapiPhone,which was used and not nearly a new model, but I’d saved for it, and it was good enough for my current use. And the other day, I bought a cheap tripod for it. If today’s video looked and sounded halfway decent, maybe we could set up anOnlyFansaccount. That would be fucking epic and meet my craving to be an exhibitionist.

I’d already been coming up with ideas to record live if I thought we could get the views and subscribers. Promoting it on social media to draw people in would take time, but it would be fun to do on the side. If we did well, hell, maybe Blaze wouldn’t have to get a job after all. But I was thinking too fast and high.

Small steps, Ajax.

I didn’t need to rush things, but Iwas eager for this.

Blaze and I previously mentioned doing a video of us during one of our sessions once, but we hadn’t really talked about it. Since he was coming over soon, I wanted to test him out with a recording, but not upload it anywhere unless he wanted me to, of course.

I smiled when I heard the knock on the door, my stomach twisting in excitement. I hadn’t seen Blaze in a couple of weeks between having to work and helping Pippin take care of Nacho. We’d made plans last week that I ended up backing out of when Alpha needed me to work on my night off. Well, we’d seen each other while I worked at Alpha’s, but we hadn’t been able to fool around at all. I was fucking antsy to be inside him again, and to feel the sting on my hand when I punished him.

I rushed to the door, but I stopped, took a deep breath, and schooled my features.

When I opened the door, I folded my arms and leaned on the doorjamb. “What doyouwant?”

Blaze’s black eyes widened, then narrowed as he scowled at me. “Are we back to this shit again? Fuck you, Ajax!” he snapped.

I couldn’t hold it in any longer and snorted a laugh before lifting him and tossing him over my shoulder. “Ajax, you’re a fucking prick! Put me down!”

“Tough shit.”

“I’m going to fucking gut you!”

“Try it.” I smacked his ass hard, and he instantly stilled. “That’s better. Just so you know, you get punished extra hard for yelling and threatening me.”

I tossed him onto the bed, where he bounced and sneared at me.

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