I can’t believe I said that out loud.
He holds my eye in the mirror. “I did. Is that a problem?”
His collected confidence unnerves me. “No. Not at all.”
A hint of a smile tugs at his lips. “Good. Next time we can do this the other way round.”
Too many words.I can’t make sense of them, and don’t dare believe he means what I think he does. “What?”
He rubs two fingers over his full lips. “Do you need me to explain?”
“Yes.”What the fuck am I doing?
“Next time, I get to watch you.”
My heart stops for at least a second. Maybe longer. But the pulse in my clit is fierce and strong, never skipping a fucking beat, and from the look on Nico’s face, he knows it.
My brain immediately begins processing how or why or when such a thing might happen, but before I can offer to do it for himright now, which is exactly what will happen if I stay here, I’m backing out of the room as fast as I can and closing the door behind me.
My head feels like it’s exploding as I run down the hall. Nico Hawkston is attracted to me. I turn him on…me. He didn’t even deny it. His dick was stiff in his hand at the time. The pleasure on his face as his orgasm spilled out… it’s an image I won’t ever forget.
I burst into my room and kick the door shut behind me.
“Fuck,” I moan, throwing my arms into the air, thrashing them like I’m swatting at an invisible swarm of bees. There’s so much energy sizzling in my body that I can’t stand still. I march to one side of the room, then the other. “Fuck,” I repeat.
I’m so turned on that I’m half-tempted to bring myself off right here in the middle of my bedroom. The blood pulsing to my clit is aching for sweet relief. But what would that achieve? I need more than an orgasm to sort this out, and the nervous skittering of my heart takes precedent.
I need to talk to someone.
Hands shaking, I grab my phone from where I left it on the dresser and call Elly. She answers on the second ring, and, in a rapid hushed whisper, I tell her everything that happened.
She listens, squealing occasionally, but it’s only when I’ve finished that she goes completely silent. I check my phone in case we’ve been cut off. We haven’t.
“Elly?” I whisper.
“Shit, Kate,” she replies. “I think I’m turned on. Does this count as phone sex? Are we having phone sex right now?”
I giggle. “Please don’t tease.”
Elly laughs. “Sorry. But I genuinely don’t know what to say.”
“Me neither.” I let out a groan. “He’s messing with my head. He was completely composed when he noticed me staring at him. Totally calm. Not embarrassed at all. Whereas I feel like I’ve melted. He’s probably downstairs sipping a scotch as if nothing happened.”
Elly makes ahmmnoise down the phone. “Do you want him to… you know… watch you wank?”
I clap my free hand over my mouth, give a muffled squeal, then release it. “I can’t believe you just asked me that.”
“You rang me. I’m trying to help.” Elly’s voice is high-pitched, and she gasps as though she’s stifling laughter before she collects herself. “He’s staying at your mum’s tonight, isn’t he?”
“Yeah.”
“Go to his room.”
Immediately, I imagine myself climbing into his bed, feeling him next to me. Touching me. Kissing me. His dick hard and—
Fuck. I’m like a dog in heat over here. Maybe thisisphone sex.Focus. “What? No. I couldn’t do that.”
“You could. Put on that underwear you packed. Come on, this is a sign from the universe. Take it by the balls.”