Finally, she went limp over his lap and sobbed. He held her there, rubbing her back and stroking her hair, allowing her to cry it out. She’d stored up a lot of tension and guilt over the past months, but he didn’t rush her. He was glad she finally had a way to let it all out.
When her sobs dwindled to hitched breaths, he said, “That’s my good girl. You took your first spanking very well. We’re all done, and we can put it all behind us.”
He turned her in his lap and lifted her to straddle his thighs so she wouldn’t have to rest her well-shined bottom on anything solid. Still sniffling, she put her cheek on his shoulder.
“Tell me, babygirl, did you remember you could use your safeword?”
She nodded slowly. When she answered him, fatigue rode her voice hard. “I did.”
“Why didn’t you use it?” He was really curious what her answer would be.
“Because I deserved a spanking for putting the girls and myself at risk. And because I hoped a hard spanking would help me get rid of all the yucky feelings I had inside. So, even though it hurt a lot, you weren’t harming me. You were helping me. So, I didn’t need my safeword.”
“That’s my big girl. Thank you for telling me. I’m very proud of you.”
He felt the shimmer pass through her at his words and it settled in his heart. Wrapping his arms around her, he rocked her gently until she fell asleep in his arms. He held her and planned. They had a lot to talk through when she woke up.
Chapter Fourteen
Bliss
Bliss didn’t want to wake. She’d been having the best dreams of Connor being her Daddy. But dreams couldn’t last forever, so she forced her eyes open. Blinking to clear the fuzz from her brain, she tried to make sense of where she was. Normally she woke to babies gurgling or crying as the early morning sun lit the bedroom.
Only she wasn’t in her bedroom. She was sitting on a sleeping Connor’s lap. What on earth! Why was she on Connor’s lap, draped over his chest, and where were her girls? The last thing she needed was to have him wake up and find her there, straddling his lap.
When she attempted to shift herself off him, the ache in her bottom triggered a flood of memories. Connor had spanked her. Hard. That should not bring a smile to her face, much less a quiver between her spread thighs.
He’d said he wasn’t going to leave any marks, but she hoped he was wrong. Everything inside her wanted to check. She couldn’t risk waking the babies, though, right? Well, she could, but she shouldn’t. But she’d had a lot of practice being quiet.
She probably wouldn’t wake them up. She’d just take a quick peek. Tiptoeing across the room, she’d almost reached the door when Connor’s rumbling voice broke the silence of the room. “If you wake those babies up just to look at your ass, I’m going to redden it all over again. Then you won’t have to wonder if you can see anything.”
She spun around, her hands automatically covering her bottom. “I don’t know what you’re talking about. I was going to check on them.”
Lie. She was such a liar. The quirk of his brow proved he knew it, too. Darn it.
He crooked his finger and patted the place next to him on the couch. “Come back over here, trouble. there are some things we need to talk about while it’s quiet.”
Hoping he meant talk and nottalk, she did as she was told.
“First, I spent the morning moving in.”
Wait. He did what now? He was going to be living with her?
Mary Poppins was aghast. Miranda tossed her cowboy hat in the air with aYeehaw!Bliss was going to have to side with Miranda on this one.
She wasn’t about to cut off her nose to spite her face. Having him here would be a relief. If she was honest with herself, the bumps and creaks in the night all the way out here by herself had always been scary. Still, he could have asked. Not that he hadn’t been living on her sofa for a week.
“Are you listening, babygirl?” Connor’s growly voice put an end to interior monologue.
“Ugh, of course I was.”
Man, he was really good at those Daddy looks.
Focus, Bliss.
“As I said, I like being closer so I can help you more. I like being able to handle CPS when they show up.” His lips twitched, then he added, “Though I appreciate the yeehaw.”
Argh! Miranda was always getting her in trouble.