Page 1 of Going Down

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A beautiful, smart and loving person will come into your life

A crowd of early birds swoop into the snack bar swarming around me. I snag my piping hot chocolate off the counter, happy that I kept my right ski glove on. Those cardboard sleeves aren’t the best insulators. I’ve only filled it halfway. There are ice cubes in the freezer at First Aid. We’re supposed to keep the trays filled for smaller injuries, but I consider melting them in my cup preventative care. Otherwise, I’ll be lucky to drink this before my break without getting third-degree burns.

The skiers push me closer to the sliding doors and metal steps beyond that are slope side. I’d normally have dropped my gear off before getting my drink, but I’m running late. The heavy ski boots covering my calves have me walking on my heels and my oversized knapsack and ski bag thud against my back, tripping me as I attempt to move out of the way of others.

The wind whips up and snow swirls around me. Conditions on the terrain today could go either way. Somehow, I’m invisible wearing a red jacket with a big white cross and Ski Patrol lettering. The resort guests will pay attention when they need me, though. Driving the rescue sled across the snow makes everyone rubberneck. Isn’t that a kicker?

I want to be more understanding because when I have free time, I’m the same as they are—unable to wait on the exhilaration, feeling the wind across my face, as I’m flying down the mountain. The fact that I’m paid to ski and a benefit of my job is riding for free? It’s the best thing going.

My phone buzzes in my durable nylon pants. I try to move to the side of the stairs to let the other skiers pass. Someone bumps my arm as I’m unzipping the pocket and the gloved hand holding the hot cup knocks into the railing. I overcompensate, squeezing my drink. The nylon fabric slides against the warm paper and the cup tumbles between the metal treads. The thin plastic top pops off and the icy snow below the staircase melts on contact with the hot chocolate. A steamy aroma floats up to my nose, and my mouth waters at the loss.

“Oops.” A teenage girl stands spurning me from the deck above. Not sorry at all, she tosses a free beverage token in the air, more likely to whip it at me than offer it as recompense. As her group of friends joins her, she shoots me a smug smile and they take off with their snowboards for the closest lift.

I roll my eyes at the sense of entitlement that goes along with purchasing an expensive day pass and focus on the still ringing phone.

“This is Kat.” I answer without looking at the screen.

“Happy belated birthday!” My dad’s voice greets me. “I’m sorry I didn’t see the reminder until right now.”

“It’s okay, Dad.” I rub my forehead, reassuring him. The tips of my glove are still hot from my drink.

My dad deserves credit for trying since my parents split up.

My mom? She did call yesterday… To tell me she and her latest boy-toy, a plastic surgery resident, had signed a lease on a Brookline apartment near Longwood Medical Center. She also mentioned taking him to Aruba to celebrate his birthday next month, which leaves me wondering if mom’s new boyfriend may be younger than me. How else do you explain why the woman who gave birth to you doesn’t acknowledge your birth date?

“I feel awful. You were the one who put the important events on my calendar so I didn’t miss them.” Dad’s guilt flows through the receiver.

“Give yourself credit for remembering Ajji and Thatha’s anniversary.” Whereas my mom doesn’t want responsibility anymore, my father is a train wreck because he’s never had to learn any of this. Before they separated, she took care of everything.

“Did your mom call?” he asks tentatively.

“She told me, Dad.”

Not wanting to be the bearer of bad news, he sighs with relief.

Go figure. My parent’s divorce was finalized yesterday, too. I celebrated the demise of a picture-perfect childhood with a few too many pints. My housemates dragged me home at midnight. Another year older, I put on my big girl panties and got up for work even though I was slow to perk. Then I gifted myself the now empty hot chocolate because that’s adulting. You buy your own birthday presents and wind up parenting a parent.

“I really am sorry,” Dad says again as if he was the one who set the wheels in motion. “I love you.”

“I know.” I also get that he needs me during this transition and to figure out his ski legs. “I love you, too.” I end the call to start my shift on time.

“You’re a sight for sore eyes!” My manager, Chip, calls as the breeze blows me in the building door. “I was afraid you were sick, too. Ski Patrol is falling faster than the snow outside.” Chip coughs into the crook of his arm. “Three medics called out before the terrain was groomed this morning. Maintenance closed the Basin slopes because they can’t get them graded until noon, and the lift for the East Mountain is shut down for repairs. Everyone will crowd into the gondola to get to the top, which means more traffic coming down the center runs.”

“Fun times,” I say with a hint of sarcasm. “Let’s hope nobody decides to duck the barriers and take on the Basin before it’s groomed like those tweens did last time.” Thankfully, there were no lingering injuries that day a cup of hot chocolate wouldn’t fix.

Man, now I want my stupid, scalding-hot, hot chocolate more than ever.

Chip’s gentle laugh at their youthful stupidity quickly turns to hacking.

An awful bug has been going through the resort. Last week it took down ticketing, the rental and the ski and board shops, and administration. We’re quarantined in First Aid. The building stands alone off to the side of the main chalet so the ambulances can get in and out without interrupting the guests. It’s how we wound up being the last ones affected by the plague.

“Stay positive, Kat.” Chip squirts hand sanitizer into his palm as if he’s bathing in it. “Whatever this is doesn’t last long. Plus, everyone in town’s got this bug. That means we’ll lose a percentage of season pass holders. And the weatherman is predicting a heap of the white stuff starting later this afternoon. Only the die-hards with four-wheel drive will travel the pass to get here if they’re more than an hour away.”

“I suppose you’re right.” It comes out a little more chipper.

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