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This is where it all ends. I can finally be free.

The glass hits my skin. I hear Logan and Landon scream.

“ALLIE NO!”

“BLUEBIRD, NO!”

Pain radiates across my body, but it slowly fades into the numbness I’m used to. I take a breath and wait for the world to fade to black.

And to my surprise, it does.

Chapter Thirty-Eight

Landon

“Is she breathing?”

Sirens blare around us as the heat of the fire radiating from the house makes me dizzy.

Allie tried to kill herself.

Her pain became so unbearable that the idea of leaving this planet was easier than existing. The most beautiful girl I have ever had the privilege of knowing was seconds from being gone forever.

Wes nods and moves to pick her up, but I stop him. “No. Let me take her.”

If I would have shown up milliseconds later, she would not be here. She would not be here if we would have taken an extra second at the stop sign. If Wes wouldn’t have tackled her and injected a sedative seconds before the glass hit her neck, she wouldn’t be here.

The rain comes down hard and I run towards my truck as police and firetrucks speed up the driveway. I need to get her out of here before we get stopped by the medics.

“I’ll drive Lan!” Grayson yells, running by me to open the back passenger door of my truck for me to slide in.

In the front seat, Grayson and Logan talk rapidly, but I ignore them.

Cradling Allie on my lap, I bury my face into her neck to try to hear a breath or some sign that she is still here. I know the sedative is strong. We have used it occasionally on victims that are a harm to themselves. Never in my life would I have thought it would be used on someone I care so deeply about, but here we are.

All day something had been eating at me and I couldn’t place it. A feeling deep inside of me was telling me something was really wrong. I called my parents and even Lachlan to see if everything was okay while waiting for Allie to text me back, but she never did. And now I know why.

This is all your fault.

I know.

You’re the reason she felt alone.

I know.

Fire burns hotter than ever in my veins and I let it. I let the voices consume me, because they are right. This is all my fault.

I feel the tears flow down my face and I don’t stop them.

“You are beautiful. You are strong. You will make it through this, but you cannot give up. Do not lethimwin.” My voice cracks as I mutter words that I have no right saying to my best friend. “I’m sorry I failed you, Bluebird.”

Before I know it, we are pulling up to Mount Rainier Medical Center and are walking inside.

Harper is the first face we see, and she runs up to us along with the charge nurse, Laura.

“What happened?” Harper asks, trying to look at a still unconscious Allie.

“She tried to kill herself. We only were able to stop her by injecting her with a sedative. She has a few minor cuts but her hand and wrist need to be checked out since she–” A lump in my throat stops me from saying what I need to and I shake my head to clear the emotion from my voice. “Since she cut there first.”

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