Page 33 of Dear Mr. Brody

I should have tried to play it cool, maybe wait a few minutes to answer, but I was too riled up for games.

@TheL0stB0y:And…

@MeAndMyShadow33:And now I can’t sleep.

@TheL0stB0y:Too weird?

@MeAndMyShadow33:No, not weird.

@MeAndMyShadow33:It turned me on.

I’d hit send before I changed my mind. I shouldn’t be embarrassed. Sex was sex, right? But I’d only ever had sexual experiences with Lanie. Michael was a stranger, this idea floating somewhere in the unknown, and I feared his judgment. I didn’t want to say the wrong thing, or sound perverted or naïve. Hiding behind the façade of anonymity didn’t stop me from being me. I was still this awkward-ass guy who’d floundered his way through his sexuality and was finally coming into his own at the ripe old age of thirty-three. I wanted to be enough for myself, and for him.

@TheL0stB0y:Yeah?

@MeAndMyShadow33:Yeah.

@TheL0stB0y:And now you can’t sleep?

@MeAndMyShadow33:Pretty much.

@TheL0stB0y:Because you’re turned on? Right now?

@MeAndMyShadow33:Right now.

An agonizing minute passed before he responded, giving me enough time to want to wish back the words I’d sent.

@TheL0stB0y:We should do something about that…

@MeAndMyShadow33:Now?

@TheL0stB0y:Don’t worry I don’t mean face to face. Not yet.

Not yet.

@TheL0stB0y:But if I was there… there’s lots of ways I could help you sleep.

The images from the video flooded my rushing pulse, spreading heat over every inch of my skin. I ached for some type of release, my fingers moving swiftly across the screen, driven purely by need. My rational brain could deal with any regrets later.

@MeAndMyShadow33:How would you help me sleep?

@TheL0stB0y:It depends on what you want.

@MeAndMyShadow33:You.

Everything.

@TheL0stB0y:I’m assuming we’re undressed in this little scenario.

Dying inside, my face flushed. I’d never done this kind of stuff with my ex. Dirty talk was definitely not my forte. But I couldn’t say I wasn’t intrigued on how this would go. Laughing at myself, I winced as I typed.

@MeAndMyShadow33:I’m already in my underwear.

@TheL0stB0y:That makes it easy. Not to leave you hanging, I get undressed too and…

@MeAndMyShadow33:Get in bed with me?

@TheL0stB0y:Thanks, I’d love to.

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