“Hi.”
“Hi.”
She’s so short, she barely reaches up to my chest. Her hair is wet. I guess she must have showered while I was out.
“Didn’t I tell you to stay in the room?”Easy.It’s not Trina’s fault I’m stressed out.
“No,” Trina corrects. “You said not to let anybody in the room. Which I did not.” She frowns at the machine. “Should I get chips or cookies?”
“Neither. Eat some real food.”
I wonder if Sarah Jane is right about me– if that “savior complex” is the only reason I agreed to help Trina.
The machine groans and Trina bends over to get the cookies.
Yeah. The only reason.
She’s pretty. Give her that. She has more hair than a woman ought to have, curly as all-get-out, flying all over her face and back. I could take handfuls of it and still have extra. Her skin is so dark, like the surface of a river at night. Her eyes are slanted, but when she looks up at me– and she always has to look up at me– I see two moons. These fool notions jump in my head at the worst moments, like when she so innocently offered to rub my back earlier and I had to stand under a freezing shower to get my head right.
“We need to talk,” I tell her.
“About what?”
“About me taking you to California.”
I follow her back to the room.
“What about it?” she says cautiously as I shut the door.
“Look,” I tell her, feeling like a scumbag, “Something serious is going on back home. I need to head back to Virginia sooner than I thought.”
“What about your job? Thatthingyou’re doing out here.”
“I...I’m not sure.”
“Okay,” she says tensely.
Fuck.
I know I don’t owe Trina a damned thing. She might be beautiful but she’s a stranger. Her situation is nothing of my doing. For crying out loud I just met the girl two days ago.
And she doesn’t have an address for this grandmother, which is the cherry on top. Not even a name. I can’t go trawling the streets of L.A. for some old lady that might no longer live on this earth — in every sense. What was that about being a hippie? Say the old lady’s mad as a fruit bat, getting high as a kite on some four-syllable drug. And then what? Leave Trina to join her? I can’t allow that.
So then what?
“Trina,” I tell her, “I’m gonna need a way to find your grandmother. A name. Something I can go on.”
Her face falls. “But I really don’t have anything, Crash.”
“Trina, listen. My wife–”Fuck. Don’t say it like that.
“It’s complicated,” I finish lamely.
Her eyes widen. “I don’t want to hurt your marriage. That was never my intention.”
I can’t with this chick. Her sweetness isn’t a put-on at all, which makes this even more painful.
My stomach suddenly growls, giving me the perfect excuse to delay this.