Page 267 of Dark Love

Vex: You need help over there?

Maybe. I snap the picture and run to the bathroom to vomit.

The photo stares back at me as I brush my teeth and rinse my mouth.

If I slide the image up, I can almost pretend it isn’t me.

But it is me.

And I’m not a child afraid of her reflection anymore.

Vex will not mock or leer or grab at me.

They don’t matter anymore. You’re a beautiful woman. You should be proud of your body.

How many times has my therapist asked me to say that? Dozens, maybe hundreds of times.

Each time I believe it more.

Believe it now.

Send him the picture.

You are a beautiful woman. You should be proud of your body.

I am beautiful.

I am proud of my body.

My hand doesn’t tremble as I click send.

Vex: Dahl, you look beautiful.

A sigh escapes.

Me: Say it again.

Vex: LOL you’re a nut, but I think that’s one of the reasons I love you so much.

Me: Ilove you too.

Let’s get this over with.

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“Wow, Prue you look amazing.” Imogene gives me a hug. “That’s your color.”

“Thanks.” Warm tones work well with my complexion. “I can’t believe you dragged Payne here.”

“Imogene didn’t have to drag me. I wanted to come.” Payne snakes an arm around Imogene’s waist.

She leans into his side. “More like he wanted to come keep an eye on you since Vex couldn’t be here to protect you himself.”

“And to eat. That barbeque smells wonderful.”

The combo of tangy but sweet barbeque sauce blends well with the brisket that is almost done smoking.

There’s Mom making a beeline towards me. “Gotta go mingle.” I rush off to hide in the throngs of people.

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