Page 237 of Forbidden Lessons

Haven

It hurts when Rooke puts a finger inside me, despite the cold lube he’s smeared all over me. But that pain quickly subsides as Kai’s fingers slide into me, two of them, stretching me tight.

I’m too tired to fight.

Too tired to tell Kai that whatever fucked up theory he’s concocted in his head isn’t true.

I don’t want to feel like this anymore.

Scared.

Confused.

Vulnerable.

They’re conspiring now. Whispering to each other. And I’m so tired, but I keep my eyes open, and I watch. Because I’ve had to be cautious and alert every moment of my fucking life.

But when Kai takes out his cock, my body comes alive again. A dead plant someone finally let have a trickle of water. I squirm, the fingers inside me less of an invasion now. More of a precursor.

And then Rooke grabs Kai’s cock, like he’s showing him how to do it, and wetness floods my pussy as I clench around his fingers.

They’re whispering, hard to hear over the rustle of bedsheets and the clink and clatter of my collar and chain, my body restless as it writhes, desperate for attention, begging for more.

Rooke kisses the side of Kai’s face. But Kai’s angry. Confused.

Don’t fight it, Kai. I can see you want it.

Like that day at the maple.

He kept fighting himself. Wanting it. Needing it. But refusing himself the pleasure. The prize he’d fought so hard to win all the years we’d been together.

“Please,” I whisper to them, to myself, to nobody.

My back arches when Rooke pulls Kai’s hand away, when he picks up his cock and starts stroking him. Both of them so fucking handsome. Satan and hiss fallen angel, and Kai’s still wondering what the fuck he’s doing in hell.

God, it’s so hot, watching Rooke take control like that. But whatever he’s saying to Kai is pissing him off so much. The anger on his face, the hurt, it hurts me.

It makes me so sad, I can’t help crying.

Sobbing. Letting it all out.

Catharsis. A cleansing, so I’m new and empty, ready for whatever they have to fill me with.

Kai leans back from Rooke, livid, and Rooke starts jerking him off harder, faster. Kai grabs his wrist, trying to stop him, but not really stopping him. Maybe encouraging him.

And then Rooke grabs the back of Kai’s head and drags their bodies together.

Kai fights him. Oh fuck, how he fights him. Muscles cording his arm as he seizes Rooke, tries to pull him away.

“History has a way of repeating itself, Kai. Fuck all you can do about it. Might as well embrace it.”

It’s so fucking hot, I bite back a moan. But I’m not quiet enough, because Rooke’s eyes flash to me, and then he’sgrinning, teeth flashing, enjoying this so fucking much it sends a shiver of anticipation through me.

“Look at her. Look how much she’s enjoying this,” Rooke says.

Kai glances at me from the corner of his eyes, and then gives me a double take.

I turn onto my side, then my back, and slowly lift my knees.

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