Page 108 of Knot All is Forgiven

Why do you feel so stressed out?

COO sprung a performance review on my calendar today

Just a minor freakout, no big

You've got nothing to worry about. You're going to be absolutely fine. Love you.

Love you too <3

Icarus always has a way of calming me down, and if his words hadn't done it, the warm love and affection he pushed down the bond to me would have.

Draining the last of my coffee, I wonder how much caffeine is too much. Should I get a third cup?

Before I can decide, my phone chimes again.

Simon has renamed the group chat Pack Jordan

Vickasaurous Rex has been added to Pack Jordan

Simon

Hey Peaches, Russ told us you have a performance review at work today. I figured we may as well do one with you today, too.

Simon

You excel at humor, affection, and cuddles. Your aptitude at the espresso machine exceeds expectations. You are a valued member of this pack, and we are fortunate to have you.

Vickasaurous Rex

Your time management skills when dealing with four Alphas are second to none. You have the biggest heart and the kindest soul. Every moment with you is better than the next, and there is no replacing you.

Rafe

You're like no one else in the world. There never has been, and never will be, anyone else for me.

Cyrus

You are everything to me.

I stare at my phone, tears streaming down my face, unsure what to say. These men, my Alphas, heard I was nervous and then did the sweetest thing I've ever seen.

Because that's what they are.

My Alphas.

Even though I've only bonded with Icarus, Simon and I are well on our way towards normalcy, and Rafe and I are mending things. Cyrus and I are struggling the most, but I'm starting to realize that that is just as much my fault as his.

Lately, I can't fault him for anything other than my unwillingness to accept him.

And yet, still, they're my Alphas. My body knows it. My Omega knows it.

Eventually, my heart will catch up. Until then, I will enjoy these moments for what they are and continue working on myself so I can eventually welcome them back into my heart.

But what do I even say to these sweet messages? There aren't enough words to express my gratitude for them taking the time to reassure me like this. My fingers shake as I type out a response.

Wow, you guys.

Just … wow.

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