Page 76 of Killian De Luca

“How do you know Reign? Because of a few moments spent together and a few secrets shared? He was lying!” Papa argues. “That’s how the De Luca’s are, using anyone in their path to get their way. They will take down everyone if they have to. They don’t feel an ounce of emotion, Killian especially.”

“It can’t be true. Papa, I love him.”

“Don’t have so much hope for Killian. He only cares about himself. He will burn everyone to the ground if he has to.”

Thirty-Eight

Killian

My nonnaonce told me that one day I’d meet someone who’s eyes look like embers of the galaxy glowing in their eyes. Like their eyes could look average or like every other person’s eye, but her eyes are the only ones that will make my heartbeat.

Being around them is just peaceful and calm.

Like everything is quiet up there.

She died of breast cancer and I’m pretty sure that’s why my mom has it because it got passed down. Nonna’s death ruined my mom because they were so close.

She was a mess, barely getting out of bed and always crying but my dad was always there to make sure she was okay and strong.

Nonna’s death didn’t really affect me because I tried my best not to get too close to her because I knew she would eventually die and that would hurt. But seeing my mom so heartbroken hurt a lot.

I made sure she was okay and was taking care of herself but of course my dad was there for my mom. He didn’t want anyone to take care of her because he said it was his duty to be there to protect my mom and make sure she is okay.

I now understand why my dad was like that because I thought about if Reign was going through something like that, I would only want her to cling onto me. I want to help her and want her to use my support.

Seeing her happy and smiling makes me feel calm and like my entire world won’t fall any second.

After spending so much time with her and slowly falling for her more and more, it made me understand the difference between obsession, lust, and love.

I went back to my room after the argument with my dad to change and take a shower. After I cleaned up a little bit, I went to my parent’s room to check on my mom. She was sleeping when I walked in, so I didn’t want to wake her, plus she’d probably see the look on my face and know something was up.

She was hooked to an IV which made me pissed off since I didn’t know she was getting chemo treatments again.

She got that when she first got diagnosed and it fucked her up. Since I’ve been away no one has given me any updates, not even Thalia. I didn’t know she was back on this shit and I’m not sure why he didn’t tell us.

I take another drag of my cigarette, the poison going straight to my heart making me cough. My heart feels like it’s on fire with the smoke stuck in my lungs.

It’s close to midnight and I’m just walking around the city.

It’s nice outside and the stars are shining as if they know Reign is looking up at them, which she probably is.

Watching the same sky as her makes me feel like I’m next to her.

“They say the people with the greatest intentions and best hearts are up there.” I hear a raspy voice say in Italian.

I look across the sidewalk and see a bum, sitting against the wall and he is staring straight at me.

There aren’t a lot of bums in my city, but you honestly never know who ends up in Lombardy anymore.

But at the same time, I haven’t been here for three or so months.

Time has flown by.

I walk across the street and stand in front of him, meeting his eyes.

He has a coat on with a gray shirt underneath and black jeans that have holes in the knees. He has dirt stains all over him and on his face.

He smells fucking horrible but he’s a bum so I can’t really expect much. I lean against the wall, standing up next to him.

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