Page 65 of Sinful

Reaching out, she gently brushed her fingers along my lips. I closed my eyes at how wonderful it was to feel the touch of someone else.

“Sinful,” she whispered softly.

I opened my eyes and stared at her, my throat tight.

“I am,” I answered back just as quietly, my voice shaking.

Fuck, get it together, pussy.

Her gaze darted over my face before her fingers fell away, making me exhale slowly.

“Eat,” she murmured, her focus still on me.

I forced out a slight smile, suddenly realizing why the guys were completely obsessed with her. She was everything we weren’t. Everything all of us had been missing in our lives. Everything we’d always wanted.

And I’d gone and fucked it up by locking her in a goddamn box with Asylum.

He’d paid his penance and won her back. He’d protected her in the facility. What had I done aside from running through the woods with her? Anyone with half a heart would have done that for someone.

All the shady shit I’d done couldn’t ever be made up. I’d accepted that. Hated it, but accepted it.

But the way she looked at me made me think maybe I could be wrong.

It always hurts. Love always hurts.

I didn’t want to hurt anymore. God help me, I didn’t.

Fuck, what I wouldn’t give to be normal.

She scooped noodles and cheese onto her fork and offered it to me despite me having my own.

Fuck, Siren, you’re making it so much worse.

Please, don’t give me hope.

I don’t deserve it.

I didn’t want to take her food since I had my own, but I didn’t want to push her away, either. Fear gripped me as I parted my lips for her.

Carefully, she put the food into my mouth. The guys always fed her. I’d even seen them doing it at lunch. Maybe she associated this with caring.

Fuck, I can’t get wrapped up in the tiny details. She probably just wants me to eat to prove I didn’t poison it. Quit overthinking.

She blinked at me, waiting for me to chew and swallow. I did so before offering her a small, wobbly smile.

I felt like a complete idiot sitting here. If she were any other girl, I’d have buried my cock inside her body already and have walked away. I’d learned my lesson with getting too attached.

But damnit, why did I want it so much?

Maybe because I couldn’t have it.

Damnit.

Seemingly satisfied, she went back to eating, not bothering to move away from me. I forced myself to not overthink it. I simply ate beside her, telling myself she was only being nice. Despite my sins, she was still the sweet girl she’d always been.

Except I’d seen her darkness only nights ago as she’d faded away and let whatever monster that lived inside her mind out into the world with her proclamation she was going to kill him.

Him.

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