Page 63 of Depraved Desires

“Whatever,” he mumbled. “Take her to Collin’s room. I’ll grab her some food on my way back from the cafeteria.”

My heart rate spiked at the mere mention of his name. If I hadn’t let my emotions get in the way over seeing him in so much pain, I might have made it out of there and wouldn’t be standing here with them today. If I had just been stronger, I wouldn’t have hesitated. That couldn’t happen again.

Horror snaked through me as my mind flashed to Rocky and Monroe. They were probably worried about me. I didn’t check in with them and Monroe was supposed to pick me up from work last night. My phone was tucked away in my locker at the club, so texting them wasn’t an option.

“Come on,” Myles instructed, motioning toward the door.

Reluctantly, I followed behind him. It felt weird leaving in nothing but a T-shirt. I’d taken my panties off after my shower last night, not wanting to wear them after sweating in them all night. It wasn’t like I could stop and grab my clothes from my room. Rocky had already taken them to Monroe’s, and I couldn’t stomach the thought of being in that room after Raven…

Once we were walking down the hall, I turned to look at Myles. “My phone is at the club,” I told him. “Is there any way I could go back and get it?”

“Why?” he questioned, raising an eyebrow. “So, you can run the first chance you get or call for help?”

My teeth clenched as anger and annoyance washed through me. I knew it was a long shot even attempting to go back to the club for anything, but you can’t blame a girl for trying.

“I’m not going to run,” I snapped back. “I made a deal with Foster.”

His eyebrows raised in surprise. Clearly, he hadn’t heard anything about it just yet. “Foster negotiated with you about something?” he pressed; confusion etched into his features.

Myles was fucking hot, and I hated it. Especially when he let his mask slip and showed a sliver of emotion on his face that wasn’t arrogance or anger. His eyes were blue like Foster’s, butmuch darker. He had a strong jaw line that helped with the overall appeal of his facial structure and his nose was just the right size for his face. As for his hair, it was as black as night and swept across his face in a jagged cut that hid the majority of his forehead.

I didn’t realize how long I’d been staring at him until his gaze landed on me and an arrogant smirk curled the corners of his mouth. “If you keep looking at me like that, Little Dove, I’m going to have to take you back to my room.” He shot me a wink, my face heating from his implication.

Clearing my throat, I glanced away, choosing to focus on the looming hallway ahead instead. “I’ll pass,” I said dryly, despite my heart racing in my chest.

He grabbed my arm, surprising me and turned me around so we were facing. “Let’s make a deal,” he began, reaching forward and tucking my hair behind my ear. “You let me bury my cock in that tight fucking pussy and I’ll take you to go get your phone and even some clothes.” I shuddered against his touch, hating the way my body betrayed me.

Myles was my biggest tormentor. After he took my virginity, I had nightmares for years. When we saw each other again, he made it his mission to destroy me, and succeeded. The fact that he was standing here right now, propositioning me for my body made my hairs stand on end.

“Since when do you ask permission,” I shot back, remembering the night of the Halloween party.

He shrugged casually, like it meant nothing to him. Like he had no regrets about what he’s done to me. I wasn’t sure why I expected him to. “I prefer my girls willing. But I have a hunch that you enjoy being forced.” A sinister smile stretched across his face, sending chills spiraling through me. “If the way you screamed for me and came is any indication of that.”

“Fuck you, Myles,” I snapped back. “I will never give myself to you by choice.”

He shrugged nonchalantly. “Then have fun wearing our shirts for the foreseeable future.” He paused, an idea sparking in that sadistic head of his. “Maybe we’ll take that away too and make you walk around naked.”

My lips parted in shock. “You’re kidding me, right?” I demanded as we started walking again.

“Deny me and find out.”

I stewed in my anger for the rest of the walk. Part of me wanted to punch him just because it would make me feel better, but the other part of me was scared of what he’d do if I did. Decisions…decisions.

Once we reached Collin’s floor, my movements stalled at the room that had once been mine and Raven’s. My heart thudded in my chest as I stared at the door, knowing she wouldn’t be behind it. Knowing that all of her stuff was probably still there. My chest tightened and tears pricked against my eyes. All those nights I’d tried to study and got annoyed with her for being loud as fuck. I wish I could take it back. The nights she’d ask me for fashion advice or ramble on and on about Hunter. It was almost like I could picture her in my head, reliving these very moments.

I missed her. She didn’t deserve this. My legs buckled beneath me, and I hit the floor, landing on my knees. She’d been the only one who cared whether or not I’d eaten, always waking me up or disrupting whatever the hell I’d been doing to haul my ass to the cafeteria.

A choked sob forced its way from my throat, tears staining my face. I’d known from the beginning that Hunter wasn’t good for her. I knew he’d hurt her, but I never expectedthis.

Strong arms wrapped around me, pulling me back to my feet. I whirled on him instantly, fury radiating through me.

“Youdid this,” I accused, shoving him in his chest. He didn’t even budge, which pissed me off even more. “You’rethe reason she’s gone.”

“Aspen,” he warned, his eyes darting to my balled-up fists. “Don’t start something you can’t finish.”

I thought I was moving on from all of this. That my heart was becoming stronger, when in reality, I’d just been distracting myself from the pain. I never truly got to mourn.

It felt like my heart was being torn from my chest. She had been an amazing person—an amazing friend. Sure, she was rough around the edges, but who wasn’t? We’ve all done things we weren’t proud of. Raven was unapologetically herself.

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