Page 21 of Five Summers

He thrusts into my mouth with a sense of urgency that leaves me breathless.

“Fuck! You're gonna make me come, Princess," he grunts, his voice filled with desire as he thrusts into my mouth.

What the hell do I do? My mind is blank, on what steps to take next. Do I remove his cock from my mouth or leave it there? But when his grip tightens on my hair and he lets out a groan, I allow his release to run down the back of my throat. His face contorts with pleasure as he rides out the wave of his orgasm. Watching him come is the fucking hottest thing I’ve ever seen.

His breathing slows, and his moans subside before I release him from my mouth with a loud pop.

Xander just sits there, his watchful eyes never leaving me. The intensity in his piercing brown eyes makes me feelvulnerable as if he can peer into the depths of my soul. Did I screw it up? Was I terrible at it? No because if I was bad at it, he wouldn't have come like that or made those sexy sounds.

Unsure of my next move, I lingered between his legs. His chest rises and falls with each breath before he leans forward and, with a gentle touch, he tucks my long blonde hair in behind my ear.

"You sure you've never done that before, Princess?" he says with a smirk.

“No,” I whisper, my voice barely audible as I shake my head in disbelief.

With a feather-light touch, he runs his thumb over my bottom lip, sending a pleasurable shiver coursing through my body.

“If you weren't a virgin, I'd bend you over that table and fuck you senseless.”

His filthy words make me feel so vulnerable like I'm completely under his power. Despite knowing that I would be just another notch on Xander’s belt, I still hoped he’d do what he said.

“You can still do it,” I add, dying for him to touch me.

“Nah… Virgins aren’t my thing,” he says, shifting back on the couch and tucking his cock back into his jeans.

I stand up and plop down on the couch, the heaviness of rejection sinking into my bones. I can't believe I didn't pick up on the obvious signs of his true intentions. I’ve spent endless hours observing him, studying his behavior. I know that Jade, Savannah, and the other girls he disappears with are just tools for him to satisfy his sexual urges.

Now I’m mad at myself for falling for his charms. I was just a means for him to get off. I'm no different from Jade and those easy girls he hooks up with. I was just a means to satisfy his sexual needs. How the fuck did I fall for that knowing everythingthat I do from watching him? I know why. Because it was Xander Williams. But that won't be happening again. I couldn't care less about the attention that jerk gives me next time. He will never fool me again.

As he gets up, I can sense him looming over me, his dark brown eyes never breaking contact with mine.

“Well, I'll catch you later, I guess,” he says as he heads towards the front door.

That’s it. That’s all this asshole is going to say to me after I sucked his dick. I refuse to let this jerk treat me like crap when I deserve better. I’m so angry that it feels like every cell in my body is vibrating with rage. Getting up from the couch, I hear the faint creak of the floorboards beneath my feet.

“Seriously, what's your problem, asshole?” I spit out.

He turns to the sound of my voice, a cocky grin on his lips. “What did you expect? You sucked my dick. No biggie. Sorry, but I’m not the marrying kind, Princess.”

“You can’t help yourself, can you? Just use people for your own pleasure and then treat them like they're worthless.”

“Princess, look at this place. You’ve got it all, but you don't fucking know what it's like to be treated like you're nothing.”

“Well, newsflash dickhead, you just did. So get over yourself. I certainly fucking have.” I yank the front door open and hold it for him to get the fuck out.

His eyes linger on me briefly before he takes a step forward and walks out through the door.

With a loud thud, I forcefully close the door behind me.

The next day at school, Xander walks right by me, not even acknowledging my presence. I thought at least the sexual favor would earn me more than being ignored. Really I didn’t know what to expect. Maybe a nod of his head whenever we crossed paths in the hallway. But in his familiar pattern, he snubbed me yet again, as he has done in the past.

The more I watch him at school, the more I understand that Xander Williams is someone who would never pay attention to someone like me. I knew I would never be special. I’d always be just a face in the crowd. A face that would always fade into the background, never catching anyone's attention. Everyone except Jade and her bitches.

Over the next few days, I keep a watchful eye on Xander’s every move. Despite how he treated me the other night, I can’t resist the allure of studying him.

Whether it was during lunchtime or while moving through the school grounds, I’m always scanning the area looking for him. You could say I'm a creature of habit, always doing the same thing for so many years. But lately, every time I spot him, I have to quickly look away because he’s already staring at me.

Like how he is right now as I sit reading. Despite my attempts to focus on my e-reader, I can feel his gaze piercing into me, leaving me feeling exposed.

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