Page 17 of Sin of the Saints

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“Don’t toy with me, Lilith,” Libretto growls, clinging to my body and using his knees to spread my legs. I cling to the back of the chair, my wings ache but I don’t dare open my mouth. I want to look away, but Libretto grips my face and forces me to look into his eyes. His grip is firm, threatening, painful. His other hand moves up my thighs and I choke as it finds the pulsing core between my legs. Damn it, it hasn’t stopped pulsing since I drained Evan’s last drop of blood, the last of the angels sent to protect the lands of Adam from me.

“You’re so wet, Lilith… always so needy, ready for me.” His breath turns my stomach and I contort my face at his unbearable smell.

“I-I… want… to taste… you,” I manage to say the words even as the bitter taste they leave in me slices at my throat.

Libretto’s eyes look down, to the glass I’m holding. His hand releases my cheeks and lifts the glass to my mouth. He tilts it and my mouth is filled with a liquid that reeks of death. My bodyconvulses in the darkness that grips me, and I struggle to keep the fluid in the hollow of my mouth.

I’m free of his grip, placing the glass on the table and bringing my mouth to him. His other hand wanders between my legs. My cunt is swollen and pulsing, and I want to scream. It’s an indescribable sin, but this is life or death for me. It’s so easy to judge a person’s actions when you haven’t tasted the bitter flavor of Hell. The moment I decided to survive, I knew I’d have to do anything to achieve my goal. Even at the cost of a loathsome crime.

He invades my mouth and we share his blood. Flashes of memory echo through the fog that envelops me. His grunt awakens all my anxieties, my whine excites all the damned demons of the underworld. The ones who live in me, and the ones I created with my own flesh and blood.

“Lilith,” he makes a low humming sound that turns my stomach. “I love you, my dear mother.”

I shut my eyes and let the tears flow, as memories flood my mind.

“In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.

And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep1.”

“Don’t turn your back on me, Lilith!”Heshouts at her.HethinksHecan command me,Lilith thinks.

“It’s not like I have anywhere else to go!” She runs to get away from Him, as far as she can, just to drain away even a few of the thoughts running through her mind.

Hegrabs her arm to stop her, and when she lets out a wail of protestHeshoves Himself backwards.

“Look at me, Lilith. Please, don’t leave me,”Hepleads.

Lilith’s shoulders slump in submission as she looks at Him. His aura is pure, clean white.Heis her entire world, butHeis not enough for her.

“I’ll give you anything your heart desires, just please don’t condemn me to loneliness. I won’t be able to bear it. Not again.”

“And that’s what I’m here for, isn’t it? To entertain you, to break up the desolation you lived in until my creation? Honestly, you’re omnipotent, just create another one like me. Better than me.”

“There will never be another like you, Lilith.” His voice softens. “Isn’t it enough that I created a counterpart for you?”

Lilith frowns.He’s a counterpart to nothing. He’s as empty on the inside as he is on the outside, she thinks.

Lilith supposedly had everything she wanted and needed, but something was missing anyway, something she couldn’t point to. From the dayHecreated her, everythingHerevealed to her was everything she knew. But something in her wanted more. Something primal and ancient, that had started as a spark she’d guarded jealously as it continued to heat up.

“Tell me, beloved, I shall create for you anything your heart desires.”Hegentlycaresses her face.

Now she dares to want more. Her muscles soften at His touch and she finds the courage to speak what her heart longs for more than anything. “I want to be your equal. I want to create.”

Hedraws back His hand, wrath igniting in Him and making the green field tremble.

A flock of birds flee for their lives as a black lump drowns out the sunlight.

“Is there not one thing I have done for you that satisfies you? Damned! Damned you are forever!”Heroars with suchforce that everything around them roils and rumbles. The chaos spreads and feeds off His pain, making its way to her, and Lilith runs as hysteria wells up within her.I must flee, flee and never look back, that’s all she can think.

“I cast you out, damned one!”Heshouts as she flees, an abyss opening beneath her and she plummets down, down, down, for what feels like an eternity, untilHedisappears from view.

“What have I done?” Lilith covers her mouth with her hands and looks around, but there’s nothing.

She’s alone. Outcast. Damned.

“Who’s there?” a dark voice intrudes into her loneliness. Are there other creatures in this world besides the vacuous and empty Adam?

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