Page 68 of Body Shot

My heart is beating double-time,pounding against my ribcage so hard I’m afraid he can see it. I’m a nervous wreck, but there’s excitement mingled in there too, along with a little bit of awe that this gorgeous man is mine. Maybe just for this week, maybe for longer, but right now—in a moment I’m positive I’ll never forget—he’s all mine. Ready, willing, and able to do something I haven’t been able to bring myself to do since that night nearly five years ago.

He covers my body with his, pressing soft kisses on my mouth, my cheeks, the underside of my jaw. He’s warm and hard, his much larger body engulfing mine, though he’s resting on his elbows to keep the bulk of his weight off me.

His thoughtfulness warms me, and I realize my body is at war with my mind as I attempt to push away the panic lurking at the edge of my psyche.

I’m tense, but I can do this.

More than that, Iwantto do this.

With Anders.

It hasn’t been long, but I trust him.

I know he won’t hurt me.

My body might betray me, buthewon’t.

If I say it hurts, he’ll stop.

That’s who he is. I wouldn’t be here otherwise.

He shifts, settling between my legs, and I squeeze my eyes shut.

“No.” His voice is gruff, serious, his body frozen as he waits for me to comply.

Slowly, I lift my lids and find him watching me.

“I need you looking at me when we do this. That’s how I’ll know if you’re okay.”

I manage a tiny nod and then?—

He’s right there.

I feel the head of his cock nudging my entrance.

A memory starts to wash over me—back to a place I don’t want to go—but then it’s gone almost as quickly as it comes, replaced by something else. Something slow and gentle and…magical.

“Look at me, beautiful.” His voice is warm and husky, his blue eyes intense as he stares into mine.

“Anders…” I don’t recognize my voice.

It’s breathy and filled with wonder.

Because he’s inside of me.

I feel it. Feel him. His thick erection gradually pushing inside, stretching me open, but unlike last time, there’s no pain. No discomfort. Nothing but the beautiful sensation of lovemaking.

“That’s it, baby. That’s all there is.” He doesn’t move, staring down at me as I gaze up at him.

“It’s…oh wow.”

“Oh wow? That’s all you can say?” he teases, a small smile playing on his lips.

“I…it doesn’t hurt.”

“Not normally, no.”

“Thank you.”

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