Page 12 of Say It's Forever

“Two sinks?” He laughs.

“Why are there two?”

“It’s pretty standard for a master bathroom. A his and hers.”

“His and hers?”

“Well, here it would be. I suppose in some homes, it could be a his and his or a hers and hers.” I still don’t get it. “It’s for a couple. They each get their own sink.”

“Oh, wow. So you are rich.”

“I do all right.” He says it with a laugh. Garrett opens a drawer, pulling out a first aid kit.

“Sorry, I shouldn’t have said that. It’s rude.”

“Snow, I always want you to say what you’re thinking. I’m sure it’s a bit of a different world out here. I want you to be yourself.”

I guess it’s okay if I ask the next question I've been thinking about since he told me why there are two sinks. “Have you ever had someone use the second sink?”

My curiosity is a double-edged sword because I want to know but I also don’t. I like thinking that I’m the only one Garrett acts this way toward. But I know that’s probably not the reality of things. Out here, a lot of couples live in sin, as my mother would say. They would cohabitate and fornicate, often breaking up and finding another partner.

His lips twitch. “It’s just Bear and me here. All it’s ever been.” Heat rushes to my cheeks, and I know I have been busted.

“It’s not my business. I’m–”

“Stop apologizing.” I’m about to say sorry again but catch myself. “You have nothing to say sorry for. You can say whatever the fuck you want. No one can stop you.”

“Out here, I suppose.” Garrett flexes his fist. “Hey, stop that,” I order, and he does.

“There is only an ‘out here’ now, Snow. You’re free.”

That’s all I’ve ever wanted, but right now I’m not sure I want to be free of Garrett. “This might burn,” I tell him when I go to wipe the cut I see on his knuckle with an alcohol wipe. He doesn’t even make a face when I do it. “It doesn’t hurt?”

“I have a high tolerance for pain.”

“Must be nice,” I mutter. I wish I could say the same.

“I’ll kill them.” I jerk my head up to meet Garrett's eyes. It’s the first time I see darkness in them.

“Don’t. You’d have to live with that.”

“With killing a man?” I nod. Though the world might be a better place without some of them. “It wouldn’t be my first time, babe.” My hand freezes.

“You’ve killed someone before?”

“I told you that you can ask me whatever you want and I’ll answer you, but keep in mind there are some questions you might not really want the answers to.” Our eyes stay locked for a long moment.

I’m not scared of Garrett, but this is a stark reminder that I don’t really know this man.

“It’s time to eat.” He breaks through my thoughts by shutting the first aid kit. “My hand will be fine. I’ve dealt with worse.”

“Garrett—”

“My story is for another day, Snow. You need to eat and get some rest.” I nod, but I don’t want him to think it has changed anything. Maybe it should have, but whatever this is I feel for Garrett is still there, even with the things he’s admitted. So I lean in and press my mouth against his.

He has accepted everything he's learned about me. I want to do the same for him, even if it does make me all too naïve.

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