And yes, thanks for asking, Tillie is feeling much better.
I know this letter is so short. I’m running out of time to sit down these days. You’ve been a patient friend as my letters have grown more and more scarce. I’m sorry, Strings. Know you’re on my mind, even when I’m not writing.
Miss you.
Scribbs
TWENTY-SIX
Bea
Icalled through the curtain. “Did you get a video of American Pie’s ride tonight?”
“I’m watchin’ it right now.”
“Oh! I want to see, too!” I shimmied into my pajamas, cursing the fact that this particular rodeo had no bath house, and I’d be going to bed sticky from a day in the sun. I ripped the curtain back and knelt beside Tag’s spot in the passenger’s seat.
He started the video again as I leaned over the arm of his chair, taking note of how close Tag’s face was to mine. The last three days, I’d existed with a painful moment-by-moment awareness of him. If I thought he was handsome the night I arrived at Meadowbrook, getting reacquainted had done nothing but dump fuel on that opinion.
And last night was a match to soaked kindling. Over dinner, he had talked to me.Reallytalked to me. Now, I felt tingly, breathless, and confused as feelings ravaged my heart. I found myself seeking out his eyes, craving his shy smile, and hoping he was watching me.
The rodeo tonight was short-go broncs only and the competition wasfierce.Scores all around were high. There were a fewwrecks. The cowboys were top notch. Prizes were doled out. The experience was euphoric, especially after three of Meadowbrook’s horses came out with champion scores. Of course, American Pie scored a ninety-one. Tag was ecstatic.
We watched her video on repeat, Tag commentating the entire time. Eventually, I stood and rubbed the dust off my knees. When I straightened, Tag’s gaze slid down the front of me, lingered on a few places, then snapped back to my face. My pajamas were blush pink silky shorts and a tank top.
He looked away, out the front window, as his fingers restlessly fiddled with his phone. His throat pulled with a visible swallow.
I couldn’t help the smile that spread across my face. Tag thought I looked good in these, didn’t he?
I said, “I guess I’m going to head to bed.”
“Sounds good.”
“I brought Glory.”
He nodded once. “I saw that.”
“You mind if I try and play her?”
His eyebrows lifted as he looked back to my face. “Go right ahead.”
A few minutes later, I stretched out on top of the quilt. The curtain was drawn. I propped Glory across my lap in the darkness. A softtick-tick-ticksounded as Tag moved his seat into recline position.
I took a deep breath and let my fingers find her strings. The light metallic squeak sent a chill down my spine. I loved the sounds a guitar made when no one was playing it. I strummed my thumb down one string at a time, tuning her.
“Any requests?”
A long silence. Then, “Play what you hear.”
I huffed as emotions immediately grabbed my throat. I’d only told a couple people in my entire life that I sometimes hear music where there is none. Like a pulsing in the atmosphere. The inaudible music would crush me until I played and sang along. And when I sat down to write a song, that pulsing music was what poured onto the page. People and their stories brought that out in me. Sometimes, I felt like I heard theirpersonalheart’s song. When I was young, I’d called it “themusic of souls” and joked that my special power was to hear and “play people.”
The memory brought tears to my eyes. It was a very intimate thing for Tag to bring up. I tried to make it light. “Funny you remembered that.”
“I believe it.”
I huffed loud enough for him to hear.
“You don’t?”