Page 19 of Beast: Part Two

Gabriel turns and walks to the door. My tears continue to flow down my face as I fight to catch my breath.

He stops at the door without turning to me. “If you need anything, I’ll be here.”

“I need you,” I whisper.

He turns and looks at me over his shoulder. “I would give you the world, Summer. But I can’t give you that.”

Fighting back my tears, I lift my chin. “Then you have nothing to offer me.”

Gabriel is silent for a moment. He then dips his head and walks out of the room shutting the door behind him.

And just like that, I fall apart. My shoulders shake as sobs rake through my body. My wound burns but I don’t care because my heart hurts worse.

Not even seconds later, the door opens and Maksim walks in. He doesn’t say anything as he shuts the door and makes his way over to his chair. He takes a seat, hands me a tissue and sits back without saying a word. I now know what that look was about before he left. He knew this was going to happen. Which is also why he took Gabe out.

For longer than I’d like to admit, I cried. I cried until there were no more tears to fall. I cried until my head and my injury hurt so bad I could no longer take the pain. When Maksim finally left my room that night, I took one of the pain pills the doctor left.

Oblivion pulled me into its embrace. Darkness took me under, and the joy of dullness swallowed me. The feeling was everything I remembered it to be. Why did I ever give it up?

chapter Five

Demon

Beast

Ipound my bare fists against the bag, ignoring the smeared blood I leave behind and the pain in my knuckles.

“You’re a fool,”the demon in my head growls.

I’ve grown to call the voice a demon. That’s what it reminds me of. An ungodly being that only seeks destruction and death.

“Shut up,” I grumble as I once again slam my fists into the bag.

It’s been a week since I left Summer’s room after calling it off. Since then, I spend my days down here in the gym trying to quiet the demon in my head. At night, I sit outside her door listening to her soft crying. For the longest I fought every urge I had to go in that room. Five nights ago, I’m glad I broke down and finally went in. Finding her kneeling in her bathroom crying as she poured the pills doc gave her down the toilet was hard to witness. But I needed to see it. I walked in that room that night to take back everything I said, but seeing the damage I do to her reminded me why I can’t have her back. I quickly slipped back out without her ever knowing I was there.

“You broke up with her allowing her the chance to find another. He will love her, touch her, and make her cry out his name while he fucks her raw.”

Shutting my eyes, I fight hard to quiet the demon. The vision of what he just said plays in my head. An unseen man strokes inside of Summer as she moans with pleasure. Her eyes take onthat glazed look it has whenever I am buried deep inside her. She whispers the words I love you to the faceless man.

When I open my eyes, I’m standing outside the gym with a barbell in my hands. I drop the weight and stumble backward. My back hits the wall as I slide down to my ass.

The demon laughs in my head. “Kill her so that she may never know another man.”

Placing my hands to my head I beat at my temples. “Mother, where are you?” I again find myself begging for the voice of my mother to return.

“Mother is not here.”The low chuckle of the demon floats through my head.

Shutting my eyes, I slam my head back against the wall. “Get out of my fucking head,” I growl.

“You okay, son?”

I open my eyes to find Priest standing before me. He has on workout clothes. His brow is arched as he stares at me.

I swallow, fighting back the demon in my head. “I’m good. I was just…ugh… letting off some steam.”

“Hmmm,” he hums. “Is that why your knuckles are bleeding?”

I look down at my hands, seeing the damage I’ve done to them. I don’t answer Priest. There isn’t much I can say.

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