Page 90 of Knot a Good Idea

Does that matter, though?

It’s not like I have a future with Donovan, or any of them.

Do I even want kids?

I’m still defective. I’m still not even?—

“April.”

I blink, my attention focused back on Donovan’s icy eyes.

“You were gone for a moment,” he says gently.

I nod. “I do that sometimes,” I admit. “I never used to. Not before?—”

But Donovan interrupts me by taking my left hand with his free one, squeezing it.

He doesn’t say anything. He just turns his attention back to the flowers, painting with his lips slightly pursed, as if we’re not holding hands at all.

It’s grounding.

And I let out a deep, soothing breath.

Kyle runs back to us and points at our joined hands. “Is Miss April your girlfriend?” he yells, loud enough for the other kids to turn around. One of the parents smiles at me warmly.

I tense.

“She is,” Donovan says easily, giving my hand a reassuring squeeze.

I’m fine playing the part in front of adults, but the kids make me nervous for some reason.

Like they’ll see through it.

But Kyle nods in understanding, looking at me before giving Donovan a thumbs up. “She’s really pretty.”

This time, both Donovan and I laugh.

19

DONOVAN

You’re a giant POS.

I smirk at Hunter’s text message. Yes, I gave Hunter and Liam the wrong day, but Hunter had almost a fucking week with her and Liam is already her favorite.

And I need to make up for how badly I fucked up.

I was cold and indifferent to her the last time we talked. Not unlike how I normally am, but April deserves more than that.

She at least deserves me totryto be nice.

She’s smart, witty, and beautiful.

Way too good for me.

That was a very hurtful thing to do, Donovan. I wanted all of us to spend time with her.

Liam’s message makes me frown.

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