Page 20 of Look What You Made Me Do

And, hand to heart, I’m serious when I say, I would have rather been beaten. Because when you’re ignored, you feel…like you’re nothing like you’re no one. You’re not even worthy of the air you breathe.

So, yeah, the fear of judgment is a big thing for me.

But right now, I’m drunk as fuck, and if I’m being honest, I’m still revved up from my encounter with the stranger last night, so fuck it. If Kai tells anyone about the kinky shit we did, I’ll just deny it.

His hand brushes over my pussy, then smooths over my ass cheek, coming down with a hardwhack. The vibration ripples through my body, and my eyes roll back in my head. Oh,yes.

“Mmmm,” he moans, the deep reverberation making my pussy clench. I conjure up the image of Lucas and imagine he’s the one here with me right now, tying me up, smacking my ass.

His fingers brush over my pussy and it twitches. My body is so responsive, so eager, it’s embarrassing. Pulling against my restraints, I press my blindfolded face into the pillows to muffle the whimper that bubbles up from my throat. But I can't breathe like that, so I twist my head to get a little air.

Dragging his fingers up the length of my slit, he pauses at my asshole, and every muscle in my body tenses instantly. I’ve never explored ass-play, and I don’t intend to do that now, and with Kai of all people. I’m cool with a quick fuck to take the edge off, but that’s where our little adventure ends.

He applies a little pressure, and I move my hips to the side in a silent show of protest. He grabs my hips and pulls me back, his low chuckle reverberating in the silence of my apartment. That voice. It’s deep and doesn’t sound like Kai at all. I’m drunk, though, and admittedly, I don’t know Kai very well.

But, if I’m being honest, Kai not sounding like himself is a plus, because it makes it that much easier for me to imagine he’s someone else—someone with cold blue eyes, and a cocky-as-fuck smile that makes my clit twitch.

He spreads me open and I feel something pressed lightly against my entrance. Is it his hand? His cock? Something else? It hovers there for a second, teasing. Maybe he’s waiting to see if I’ll pull away again.

What a fucking cock tease.Literally.

I wiggle my ass again and moan a little. I’ll beg if I have to, but thankfully, a second later, he pushes into me slowly, and I’m relieved when I realize it’s his cock.

Halfway in, he pauses, then pushes in the rest of the way quickly, with one violent thrust. The movement jolts me forward, and I moan again loudly, but thankfully, the sound is absorbed by the pillow. The sensation of being filled has me gasping. I groped him through his pants back at the club, but he was a lot bigger than he felt. He fills me to the brink of pain.

And if thought he would be gentle, then I was wrong. Gripping my hips tightly, he pulls me back while thrusting into me again. The pain of being stretched leaves me gasping, and I squeeze my eyes shut, burying my face deeper into the pillows. I can’t breathe, but I couldn’t breathe anyway. I’d rather have my face hidden, so Kai doesn’t know how much pain I’m in, because then he might stop. And he can’t stop.

He fucks me hard, unmercifully, jerking into me, his cock slamming against my cervix over andover. After a few minutes, my body accommodates him, fitting around his girth. It feelsamazing, and I’m so damn wet, it’s a wonder he’s able to get any traction at all.

I whimper into the pillows, my body slowly coming alive under his assault. He slaps my ass, the sting rocking through me, adding to the chaos of pleasure.

And when he reaches around and touches my clit, I jerk and pull against the zip-ties, clenching my hands into fists.Dear God.I’m seconds away from losing it. Spots start to flicker behind my eyelids, and my entire body is vibrating like a goddamn tuning fork.

His fingers thread through my hair, and he tugs hard, pulling my head back. I can feel him lean forward, his chest brushing against my hands, as he brings his mouth to my ear. “This cunt ismine.”

My whole body stiffens instantly. That’snotKai’s voice. I recognize that deep baritone. It’s the same one from last night, the voice from my waking dream. Or nightmare. Whatever you want to call it.

Swallowing, I try to twist away, but I’m tied up and blindfolded. He has complete control of my body. “What do you want from me?” I squeak out.

He pulls out of me, nearly all the way, then pushes back in again, groaning loudly. “Thispussy,” he growls, and his tone is so dark and so primal, it sends a little zip of pleasure careening through my body.

I don’t want that, though. Iwantto be horrified. I want to hate what’s happening. I mean, that’s what I’m supposed to feel, right? But despite knowing I should hate this, I can feel my body opening up, welcoming this stranger’s brutal invasion.

Tears sting my eyes as his thrusts intensify. My channel tightens around him, and he groans in response. “Fuck, yeah. That sweet pussy is strangling my cock. You can’t hide that, can you?”

“Fuck you,” I choke out, tears streaming down my face.

“Oh, yeah, you like it. Your body doesn’t lie like you do.” He sounds amused like this is all fun and games to him. “I’ve been waiting a long time to come inside this pussy…” It sounds like he saysagainafter that, but I can’t be sure. My heart is beating so hard and so fast, it’s hard to hear anything else.

I whimper, because I know whatever happens, I’m powerless to stop it. He’s in complete control of my body, and I’m not sure why that feels….freeing. Maybe it’s because I have no choice but to let go and submit to this faceless stranger.

He applies just a fraction more pressure to my clit, and that’s it. My body is so keyed up, that I climax with him burieddeepinside me. He’s still fingering my clit, pulling my head back as liquid heat ripples through me, electrifying my veins, and I cry out from the intense pleasure of it, “Oh, fuck!”

He thrusts a few more times, then stills inside me. With a deep growl, I feel his cock pulse as he comes, his hips moving just slightly as he draws out the pleasure, allowing my pussy to milk him dry—and it does.Jezus.

When it’s all over, the reality of my situation rushes in. My thoughts are a jumble. I can’t breathe. Where the fuck is Kai? How did the stranger manage to get inside my apartment, and displace Kai without me even knowing?

Slapping my ass again, he pulls out of me. The second I’m free, I flip over and scramble off the bed. And blindfolded with my hands tied behind me, that’s quite a feat. I bump into my nightstand, though, and start to fall, when I feel a pair of strong hands curl round my arms, and haul me upright, steadying me.

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