Page 69 of Resist Me

“You’re gonna judge me,” I said.

“Never. Well, that’s a lie. I’ll judge the hell out of you, but in the most loving way you’ve ever been judged.”

“First, let me say that it meant nothing. That was pre-established.”

It didn’t look like he believed me, but he motioned for me to go on.

I took a deep breath while I considered breaking my coffee cup so that I could slit my throat.

“It was a man.”

His brow furrowed. “You just mumbled that so fast. What’d you say?”

“It was a man.”

He blinked slowly, then rolled his lips. Raising his own cup, he drank for longer than was necessary. He leaned his elbows on the counter and cleared his throat.

“I’m sorry. Did you say you slept with a man?”

“What!” Sen shouted, rushing into the room. His mouth was gaping like a fish as he looked back and forth between us.

“What the hell, Sen?” I growled.

“I was eavesdropping.”

“Obviously.”

Kai held his hand out. “Come here, baby.” When he got close enough, Kai tucked Sen into his side and kissed the top of his head.

Ugh. Cute. Gross.

I remembered the way Linc kissed me after we had sex. It was tender and made me feel cherished in a way I never had.

“Who was the guy?” Kai asked.

Realizing they were both watching me, I gripped my mug tighter. “Someone random. Never met him before.”

“You didn’t know him, but you gave him your dude virginity?” Sen asked skeptically.

Don’t be suspicious, don’t be suspicious.

“Yup. Probably had too much tank juice. It happened and it’s fine.”

“Did you like it?” Kai prodded with a smirk.

“Does it matter?”

Sen leaned closer, but Kai pulled him back a little. “Which one… Who…” Sen grimaced and made a gross gesture with his fingers.

“That’s a good question,” Kai mused. “Giving or receiving, West?”

“I’d argue that every position gives a little something,” I replied dismissively.

“Oh my god.”

“Don’t.”

“It’s cool,” Kai said, holding up his hands. “I’m supportive of all positions.”

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