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"It was just my first time since Andrew. I'm so glad it happened, but I also feel sad, and I just don't know what to say. I don't want you to think I'm sad about it happening, because I'm not."

I pull her to my lap. "It's ok to be sad, and happy. It was a big moment. I'm so grateful that you gave that to me. But I wouldn't expect you to have no feelings about it."

"Are you sure? I don't want you to think any less of me, or our moment. It meant the world to me," she admits.

“Of course I'm sure. I’m glad you are happy with how things are. I just always want you to be comfortable with how our relationship is moving.” I give her a quick kiss back. “Now, let’s go.”

We clean up our writing supplies, and get ready to brave the cold for our walk to the gazebo.

“Almost ready?” I call out. I’m not sure where she disappeared.

“Yes! I’m coming!” She yells from the bedroom.

Waiting by the door, she comes out, “I’m sorry. I can’t find my hat,” she pouts.

I remove my hat and place it on her head. “Perfect fit.”

Lorelei stares up at me. “I think we are.”

Our lips crash together, letters hit the floor, and I kiss her with all the emotion she deserves.

I pull her up to me, and her legs wrap around my waist. I carry her to the couch, our letters are forgotten in the moment.

I count myself a lucky man if she really thinks we’re a perfect fit together.

December 16th

Scott:I can't wait to see the town's tree lighting with you tonight, but the beauty of the lights will never compare to yours.

December 17th

Lorelei

I wake up as the sun streams in through the windows in my living room and realize that I must have fallen asleep on the couch last night. I may have been sucked into a Hallmark Christmas movie after the tree lighting.

Our small town tree lighting always puts me in the mood for a good romantic holiday movie.

The movie has inspired me to plan a date for Scott instead of letting him do it all.

Me:I’m planning tonight’s date. Be here at 7:00 when Oliver goes to bed. ;)

I hop onto Pinterest to start planning. I’m going to make a Christmas themed Charcuterie board for Scott. He loves Charcuterie boards, and the reason is comical to me. He said his boys would always get Lunchables as kids, and he always wanted some but his wife would never buy them for him because he was an adult and didn’t need one.

So, when charcuterie boards became popular he said it was like he was finally getting to enjoy those Lunchables and have it be acceptable.

Now, normally I would buy him Lunchables, but,gross.

So I’m making him a fancy one. And then we’re going to picnic by the tree because I always loved to set up picnics for the girls by the tree.

Last night sitting with Scott, by the tree in the town’s center, I could see why they always loved it so much.

A cozy fire, the lights on the tree, a soft blanket, and some nice Christmas music playing will make this perfect.

It was difficult to get everything set up and have Oliver not want to stay up to hang out. So I couldn’t let on that Scott was coming over.

Oliver decided that bedtime meant nothing to him tonight. Luckily, he is now sleeping soundly and Scott was able to come later.

Scott:I’m here, but don’t want to knock or come in in case you aren’t ready for me yet.

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