Page 19 of Under Their Watch

“Because relationships are more than just sex,” Mia says. “Quinn and Jace like to take care of people. They’re ruthless when they fuck, but they are the sweetest men on the planet. They will dote on you like I’m sure that they always did, only now they are going to be extra protective because of Marvin.”

“It just doesn’t feel real, I guess,” I say as Mia hands me a pastel pink sundress. “Oh… I don’t have panties on. So…”

“Which one of them did it?” Mia asks.

“Jace,” I laugh.

“A sun dress with no panties?” Anika asks. “Fuck yes. I think I want to change clothes now.”

“I feel like pissing off Max,” Mia says. We all change clothes. I am wearing a pink dress. Anika has a light blue one on, and Mia has a yellow one. Because of how it’s made, it doesn’t require a bra either, so I just have the dress on.

“Please do. I’ve been trying to get him to go after you for months now,” Anika says.

“Am I… am I supposed to be polyamorous, too?” I ask. “Like… is that what Quinn and Jace would want?”

“I won’t lie. They’ll definitely want to share you, but knowing them, they will always keep themselves involved. Even if it’s just being close by,” Anika says. “Quinn will scene with us, but it’s not super often. Not unless we intentionally piss him off.”

“The most important question is, do you want to be a part of that?” Mia asks.

“Uh… I don’t know how to answer that. I feel like I’m violating some kind of girl code.”

“It’s Theo, isn’t it? Please be a brat to him,” Anika laughs. “Girl, if Quinn and Jace trust you, so do I. I know that’s why you trust us.”

“If you can’t bring yourself to actually bring it up in a conversation, just be a brat to the other guys, and see how it plays out. You are basically dating Quinn and Jace, considering they just fucked you into unconsciousness, so everyone will always go to them for permission.”

“Does this make me their submissive, or…”

“Do you want to submit to them?” Anika asks.

“I do,” I say. “I want to learn what this lifestyle can be like without suffering.”

“So… Theo uses BDSM therapeutically. Obviously not always, but he is really fucking good at finding that one thing you respond to and playing on it. I think with how controlling Marvin was, it would be good for you to work with Quinn, Jace, and Theo on how to give control over in a healthy way. It’s very important that you understand the difference between abuse and consent,” Anika says.

“The whip,” Mia says.

“Oh. Just a heads up, Theo will want to show you how a bullwhipshouldbe used. I saw it all over his face yesterday when he saw the scars.”

“I don’t know about that,” I say quietly.

“Bullwhips don’t always hurt,” Theo says from the doorway behind me. “Who thought it was a good idea to put the three of you together?”

“What do you mean, Theo?” Anika asks with a grin.

“Brats,” he grumbles before turning to me. “She is right. I would like to show you that it’s not supposed to be like that. It soundsintimidating, but I could use it in a way that doesn’t even hurt or leave a mark. Someone who knows what they are doing can control the intensity.”

“I… I’d like to see it first,” I say.

“We can sit down with Quinn and Jace first, and then go from there,” he says, gently squeezing my shoulder.

“Does that mean I have to…”

“It means nothing besides we can sit down with Quinn and Jace,” he says softly. “A big conversation needs to happen with everyone, so we all understand your limits.”

“Yes, M…,” I say, but stop myself short again. I drop my head and chew on the inside of my cheek, trying to calm my nerves.

“Come on,” Anika says, hook her arm with mine. “I’ll save you before he psychoanalyzes that.”

She and Mia pull me out of the room, and we go back into the living room. “Hot damn!” Max exclaims as he looks up at us.

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