Page 48 of Primal God

“Have a good night, Ms. Wolfe.”

“Dimitri, wait.”

I stop.

“Call me, Lilith, please. We’re friends, after all.”

She gives me a small smile before walking away, leaving me alone in the dark.

I look up at the night sky I love so much, tears filling my eyes.

Serafina was right. I don’t deserve to be happy. Which means I must keep my distance from Ms. Wolfe. No matter what.

10

Lilith

The next morning, I manage to sleep in, but don’t feel rested. How could I when thoughts of Dimitri kept me up all night? I was torn between being aroused and thinking about the guilt-stricken look on his face after I came. That’s the second time it’s happened, even though I’m certain he doesn’t remember the first time.

So, yeah, I didn’t sleep well at all.

My phone dings as a text message comes through.

Adam

We still on for tonight?

I sigh.

Adam presents a different problem this morning. How can I go on a date with him after what happened with Dimitri? On the other hand, how can Inotgo on a date with him? Dimitri made it clear that he regrets what we did, so I’d be stupid to cancel on Adam. Right?

Yeah, we’re still on.

Good. I was worried you were going to bail on me.

Why were you worried?

Let’s just say it’s happened before.

Well, it’s not happening tonight.

I’ll see you at 6 at the library.

See you at 6!

I set my phone on the nightstand next to my bed, trying not to feel guilty. It’s strange that I even feel guilty. Adam and I aren’t a thing, so it’s not like what happened last night could be considered cheating.

I exhale, covering my face.

When Dimitri asked if I trust him and then pulled me to the deep in of the pool, I was honestly up for anything he had to throw my way. And Adam, with his pretty grey eyes, didn’t cross my mind once.

Honestly, I didn’t even think about Adam until this morning, when I woke up. What kind of person does that make me?

Instead, I spent the night playing the what-if game. What if Dimitri hadn’t stopped when he did? What if I woke up next to him? What if… what if.

Today the biggest what-if is what if Dimitri fires me because of what happened. God knows we crossed a line last night. Sure, it’s been building on my end, but I wasn’t sure how he felt. Not until he reminded me of what I called him that night.

Daddy.

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