Page 13 of Primal God

João glances toward my room and says, “I remember the two of you fighting about it a lot when I was a kid.Mãewouldsay that you were trying to ruin her body by demanding more children.”

“I’m sorry you overheard that.”

He gives me a sheepish smile. “I was likely out of bed when I shouldn’t have been.”

“I always hoped to have a large family. After a point, I was happy with it being just the three of us.” I swallow down the words that were about to come out of my mouth. João doesn’t deserve the weight of my problems, so I say, “And now I’m happy it’s the five of us.”

João is silent, but nods. “You’re a good man, Dad.”

I pull him in for a side hug and say, “You are, too. Now, let’s have a drink and you can tell me all about your day.”

While I’m not a fan of my son drinking at parties, I’ve allowed him to share a drink with me in my study once he became a member of the Brotherhood.

His face falls. “My day wasn’t so great, and I think alcohol is part of the reason.”

“Because you’re hungover from last night?”

João is silent as we make our way downstairs to my study. I pour myself a drink and wait for him to speak.

Finally, he says, “Lili broke up with me this morning.”

This has me sputtering down the drink I just took.

“Did she give you a reason?”

“She just said that we both knew it wouldn’t work out and that we’re from two different worlds.” His eyes water as he looks up at me. “It just sucks, you know? I really liked her.”

Every word I said to her yesterday comes rushing back to me and I feel ashamed. Is this my fault?

“I can speak to her if you’d like?”

“God, no. That will only make things worse.” He sighs. “Maybe it’s a good thing. I wanted to go to Europe for a fewsemesters, like Elite Member Zhang suggested, but felt guilty leaving Lili behind. I guess that’s not an issue now.”

It has been a pride watching João embrace the Defiant God Brotherhood, but I’m not sure how I feel about him taking advice from Zhang. I’ve never trusted that fucker.

“Do what’s right for you.”

“Thanks Dad.” He smiles. “I think I’m going to go out for a bit.”

“Text me when you get back.”

“I will.”

He walks away, leaving me to my thoughts.

I caused my son pain because I can’t get my selfish desires under control. Desires that have only recently come to light.

When João first brought Lilith to our house, I saw a mousy girl who needed a friend in my son. As their relationship progressed, I saw someone who might help him grow. But something changed when I saw her a few months ago. Something that I haven’t been able to ignore, no matter how much I try. Something that will send me straight to hell.

Because I want my son’s girlfriend.

My cock hardens as I admit the truth to myself.

I want her so much that it’s become almost an obsession.

I’m moving before I can stop myself, locking the door to my office. Lilith’s words from yesterday dance around my head as I sit in my leather chair, freeing my cock. She taunted that I had probably rubbed one off in my room after seeing her naked at the pool. And she was right. She’d be stunned if she knew I wrapped her panties around my cock. She’d be shocked if she knew how many times I had done it since, too.

Closing my eyes, I remember the way her body moved as she undressed. Her skin glowed in the moonlight, and each curve of her body beckoned me to go out there and claim her. I groan as I stroke myself. She said I wished I was the one in the pool. Shewas right about that, too. Precum leaks from the tip of my cock, and I smear it around, pumping myself harder.

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