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He needs to tell me what’s on his mind.

Slowly, I lower myself into my office chair.

All I need right now is to be patient and to listen.

Chapter 16

Nico

When I walk into the office, I am consumed by rage. Furious with her for keeping my son from me. I want to blame her for everything that’s gone wrong and for the situation we’re in now.

But it’s not fair. It’s not her fault.

But I do deserve and want answers from her.

I stand in her office, staring at her, wondering where to start. I have so many questions - so many things I don’t understand and so many emotions that I don’t know what to do with.

Bella moves slowly as she takes a seat at her desk. She is pensive, quiet and waiting.

She’s had her chance to speak and right now she isn’t even trying to say anything - she’s leaving it up to me. I’m grateful for that, but still angry with her.

The more I watch her though, the more confused I get about how I feel.

It’s almost impossible to stay angry with her.

She’s too beautiful.

She’s too elegant and controlled and gentle and soft and kind.

She’s everything I want, but she lied to me.

She didn’t lie - but she kept secrets.

I clench my jaw.

I have plenty of secrets as well. So who am I to point fingers at her.

“Bella, I just need - I want to know - I just - fuck.” I mutter.

Starting again, I take a deep breath and think about the questions I want to ask. One at a time, controlled, I go through them.

“Why didn’t you tell me? I know you could have asked Lina for my contact details. You had ways. It’s not like it would have been impossible to track me down.”

“I wanted to tell you, Nico. But what good would it have done? I was supposed to be hiding. If you, oranyonefound out I was pregnant with your baby - it was a risk. I was too scared to take that risk. Besides - we had a one-night stand. An accident in a lotof ways. You didn’t choose this. You didn’t choose to have a baby, and I didn’t want you to think you were obliged to be with me.”

She watches me while I listen to her answers.

“You made a lot of assumptions about me, Bella. That’s not fair of you.”

She bites at her lip and it sends shivers through me.

I’m struggling to stay angry with her.

Whenever I spend even the smallest amount of time around her, it interferes with my thoughts - affects my body and my mood.

She has a positive effect on me. She is magnetic. She fills me with energy.

I ask her a few more questions about our son, before I ask the most important one. “Were you ever going to tell me?”

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