Page 64 of Deadly Don's Savage Vows

It is still weird that I don’t know what happened.

But it doesn’t matter.

I am falling in love with Nico all over again. I can see why I would have fallen in love with him in the first place - because it was so easy to do it again.

The universe must have always meant for us to be together because if, as he tells our story, we lost each other the first time when I came to New York on the run from my ex, and we lost each other again when I forgot everything -but we are still so in love right now- then we are meant to be together. We always were meant to be together and nothing can pull us apart.

After I stopped trying to force myself to remember everything, and to just let go, I was so much better. I gave myself permission to stop focusing on what I didn’t recall. It was a relief. One I needed.

I no longer felt like I was failing or broken. I no longer worried about what it was I was forgetting. And every step of the way Nico has been patient, letting me learn who he is all over again.

There are so many times when I can see he knows something, or we are doing it for a second time, but he just grins and lets it happen.

His heart is so giving, so warm and so gentle.

He has helped me in ways he might never understand.

He is perfect for me and I can’t imagine my life without him.

Whenever he walks into the room my heart flutters, filled with butterflies, and my skin burns with excitement. When he smilesat me my entire body melts with desperation to feel him against me.

He drives me wild.

He fills me desire and passion and he makes me feel like I am the only girl in the entire world.

I love him. It’s easy to know that.

And the beautiful part is that it’s only the beginning of how incredible our love might become. The more time I spend with him the deeper I fall for him. I feel safe and comfortable around him - but also filled with excitement.

And our little boy, Dante, knows who I am. I can see in his eyes - the way they light up when I speak to him. I have always been his mother. He sees me as his mother.

And now that he’s learning to walk I am always the first one who he comes waddling over to. It’s reassuring to me, those little things that mean the world. My son knows who I am.

If nothing else - that should give me peace of mind.

I’m happy.

I can’t believe that I went from being in a position where I was about to marry that monster - to this. It’s as though I was plucked from a nightmare and placed into my dream life. Everything that happened in between is inconsequential. It led me here - to where I belong, with the man I belong to.

I have reached out to Lina a few times over the past month to reconcile our friendship, but she is still angry. Too angry to even have a conversation with me and while I will keep trying to rebuild what we had, I accept that if it is lost forever - it was still worth what I gained in the end. My family means everything to me. My little boy and the man I love. I would choose them over anyone and anything. I would fight for them.

They are my world.

One day Lina might see how much I love her brother and she might come to understand why I kept those secrets from her. I can understand why I would have done that, even if I don’t remember it.

Nico has spent many nights, as we sit by the fireplace sipping a glass of red wine, telling me the story of how we met and the things that we have experienced together. He’s told me over twenty times and I still can’t remember any of it.

Tonight is another one of those nights.

He shakes his head. “I can’t keep telling you the same story - you know it by heart at this point.” He says as he throws another log into the giant fireplace.

“But I enjoy hearing it.” I giggle and he leans back, pulling me against his chest. “But - do you know what - “ I grin.

“What?” He asks, looking at me with those gorgeous eyes that capture my soul and melt my heart.

“I think that ournewstory is more romantic. There is no bad guy in this story. There is no drama or distance or time apart. We started all over again and this time we will never walk away from each other. I like this new story better.” I smile, snuggling against him.

He smiles, his eyes on me.

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