“One second,” Daddy called out.
He helped Rainey off his lap and got her clothes. She nervously moved on her feet. Who could possibly be out there? Why were they knocking?
“Hands on my shoulders and lift one leg at a time.”
She did as she was told for the underwear and shorts.
“Such a good girl. And here’s my shirt.”
Putting her arms up, Daddy helped her put his shirt on. It was loose, but anyone could see she wasn’t wearing a bra and that she was pregnant.
Something she didn’t like or want.
“Can I have my bra?”
“Not right now.”
She opened her mouth to ask again, but Daddy walked over to the door. The closer he got, the more it felt like someone was sitting on her chest. Was he really going to let someone in the room while she didn’t have a bra on? While they could see her hard nipples through the shirt?
“Red.”
Daddy stilled and turned around. “Let me tell them to give us a coupleof minutes and we’ll talk about it.”
Was Daddy going to be mad that she had said her safe word?
After Daddy was done, he walked over to her and took her hand, leading her over to the bench.
“You said your safe word.”
“I’m sorry!” she blurted out.
“You never have to feel sorry for using your safe word. I’m happy you are comfortable enough to say it with me and not push through. Now, can you tell me why you used it?”
“I’m not wearing a bra.”
“Okay, can you explain?”
She took a shaky breath in. Rainey honestly expected him to be angry, but he wasn’t’.
“I can’t. I can’t have them see me. Please don’t make them see me without a bra. I just, I can’t do it. I need to wear one. I felt like someone was sitting on my chest as you got closer tothe door, and I couldn’t breathe. Please. I promise I’ll be a good girl, but don’t let them come in when I’m not wearing a bra.”
She couldn’t say why it made her feel like someone was sitting on her chest. She just didn’t want anyone else to see her braless. It felt too intimate, and she wasn’t ready for that.
“You’re okay. You are safe with Daddy. Take a deep breath for Daddy. Hold. And slowly let it out. Such a good girl.”
Her breathing evened as he talked her through it a couple more times.
“I’m sorry I made you feel like that. I didn’t know. But thank you for explaining it to me.”
It was like a weight lifted off her chest. He really wasn’t mad at her but was actually happy.
“Let’s get your bra on, and then we’ll let Charlotte in.”
“I don’t know if I can see her.”
“She has something to tell you. I think you’ll want to hear it.”
Did she?