I stay silent for several moments, and Ben finally says, "Carrie, why don't you go next."
I barely hear her or any of the others. When the meeting ends, I rush out of the building with Jaxon on my heels.
"Ivy," he calls out, grabbing my arm at the bottom of the steps.
"Not now," I warn, not looking at him.
"Ivy—"
"I said not now," I shriek, spinning to face him, full of another emotion I never escape—raging anger.
He slowly lifts his hands in the air. "I'm here if you need me."
I say nothing, hightail it down the street, and jump on the bus before it pulls away. I find a seat toward the back and get lost in my self-loathing.
It's dark by the time the bus driver stops in my neighborhood. I keep alert, rushing past anyone I encounter, relieved when I enter my front door. I lock it and call over the TV, "Dad, I'm home."
He doesn't reply, which is unusual.
The hairs on my neck rise, and I call out again, turning the corner into the family room.
A choking sound fills the air. Dad's in his armchair, holding his chest.
I rush over to him, fretting, "Dad!"
Sweat covers his purple cheeks. His widened blue eyes glisten.
"Dad!" I cry out, grabbing his cold hand.
His eyes roll, and foam spills past his lips.
My insides quiver. "Dad!" I pull my phone out of my purse and try to turn it on, but my gut dives when I realize the battery's dead.
"No, no, no!" I sob, glancing at the table and patting Dad's empty pockets.
The purple deepens, more foam falls, and I tug him into me, weeping.
He freezes, his eyes wide open.
"Dad," I shriek, my hands on his cheeks. "Dad! Breathe!"
He doesn't take in any more oxygen. The warmth leaves his body, and his face goes slack.
I tug him into me, sobbing until I have no more tears. Feeling numb, it takes a few moments for the sound of loud music to register.
I slowly turn, and then paralysis hits me.
The TV shows Avery Carrington, sitting with her legs crossed and perfectly manicured hands in her lap, beaming at talk show host Winter Sophia.
"Welcome back. If you're just joining us, we've been discussing the newest scent developed by Avery Carrington. Tell us more about how you created Seducing Ivy," Winters asks, holding up a bottle of perfume in the shape of the letter I. It has whore-red garnets and diamonds encrusted on it. A vineof gold ivy leaves wraps around the pendant with more garnets etching the vine.
Whore red.
My stomach churns. It's the same design as the necklace she gave me the night of my demise. The color of the I matches the nail polish and lipstick Dax used to insist I wear.
Avery chirps,"Well?—"
"I think it's best if I explain, don't you, dear sister?"a voice calls out, and my insides tremble harder.