Page 30 of Teach Me How To Fly

I took a deep breath in, and other thoughts came immediately to rescue me.

“Don’t marry her.”

“It’s that or not ever seeing you again because I’ll be dead.”

“Then kill me too.”

Our little dialogue replayed in my mind, and my heart ached.

Her words engraved on my soul, making my heart start beating faster.

Who would’ve thought that I was going to be like this? Thinking about one girl, obsessing over her and the urge to protect her from everything that could’ve made her suffer.

I couldn’t recognize myself at all.

I felt the need to protect her ever since we were children. I’ve always looked after her, making sure she was happy all the time and didn’t feel the absence of anything.

But I guess that happens to all the children who’ve lost their parents. Maybe I perceived her as a version of me, alone and scared of the whole world around her, with no one to rely on.

That’s how I was until I was woken to reality by the truth. I had no one to support me, so I had to become my own support.

That was when I became the man I am today. The man who creates terror in bad people’s lives, and sometimes, destroys the lives of good people.

I tilted my head to get out of my thoughts, then I turned over and looked through the window’s glass.

Katya was sitting on the beach and that made me exhale with ease because I knew she was going to stay there for a long time after our talk.

I took my phone and threw myself on the bed’s surface. It was seven in the evening and that made me happier because I was going to sleep again in a few hours.

The temperature here on the island was higher than I expected, and I hated that I was constantly sweaty. I loved the cold weather more than anything, and it might’ve been that way because I was born in late December which made me love winter.

My attention got caught by the sound of my phone vibrating between my hands, which made me frown and unlock the screen. The moment I saw Annalise’s name on it, I couldn’t stop myself from smiling like a little boy who just got his favorite toy from Santa.

Annalise

Are you sure no one can read our messages?

Me

Absolutely sure. How are you feeling?

I knewI gave her the phone, but I didn’t think she would actually send me messages. It was a real surprise that she actually did it and it made me really happy. I wanted to talk to her every fucking second.

Annalise

I’m better now. Father has left to God knows where, and I have plenty of time to study. :)

I smiledwhen I read her message. I knew how badly she wanted to attend a university, but all I could do was to support her in the learning process because Lukyan wouldn’t have ever let her go to to a university. Annalise was not allowed to go to a normal school or do any other activity involving other people other thanspending time with Olivia or her bodyguard, but Katya on the other hand, could attend high school in the city, could go to any university she wanted and go to parties.

It didn’t make much sense to me.

Annalise had so many dreams and I had to turn them into reality. I wanted to make her the happiest she could be. But her happiness could start only from the day her father would die.

Me

What subject are you studying today?

Annalise

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