Page 59 of David's Chase

She dismisses me with a curt gesture.

‘Oh, please… Get over yourself. Nobody cares. But don’t you dare to come to me when your new man breaks your heart.’

I take another bite.

‘You don’t know that.’

She waves me off.

‘You know I know that. And you know it too. Look at you. Living the life, thinking this is normal.’

Chewing on my treat, I toss words at her in my head.

‘Didn’t I just say that you were envious? Yeah… I’m enjoying myself, so what? I know this is not my regular life. That doesn’t mean I can’t make the best out of these moments.’

She stays quiet.

‘What?’I taunt her as she seems ready to antagonize me again.

‘Have you seen how he treated you?’

‘Uh… Yeah. He treated me well. And I don’t see your point.’

‘Wait a little, and you will see my point. When all of this is finished, done, you will remember my words.’

“Fuck you,” I murmur quietly before sipping more tea.‘I know all that,’I continue in my head.‘And I won’t refuse myself the pleasure of fully enjoying this moment because it’s all supposed to end at some point. Honestly, that’s why it’s so enjoyable. Have you seen how honest he was with me?’

She says nothing, but she is right.

One day, I’ll wake up in my bed at home with my old schedule in front of me. School, work, maybe gym, and not so great perspectives.

And that won’t even be my biggest problem.

I will work my way through that, as my mother taught me.

But there is something else I will dearly miss.

The confident man in bed.

The way he treats me like I matter.

Yeah, yeah…

He has experience.

And he knows how to do these things.

He pays attention to me––what a novel idea––and I roll over for him.That’s what I’ll miss.

It’s hard to follow that up with awkward sex, unreliable dudes, and lackluster personalities.

A lot of my fascination with him is fueled by the age difference and mystery surrounding him.

Add to that the fact that his life is different than mine.He has money, power, and women. And he travels a lot.

He has this house that looks like the perfect place to live, write, cook, throw a party, and have sex.

And I could get used to it in a second.

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