For a second, I couldn’t breathe as I considered that possibility. Was that what Benjamin was hoping for? For me to screw up and then be swiftly handed to him without going through all this?
I hated to admit it, but it was smart. Too smart for Ben.
“I will bring Adam back and we will tell you what is going on. This is the day we’ve been waiting for. We’ll have a plan."
A plan. I nodded slowly.
“Ok?”
I glanced towards the clock. “I have to go to class.”
“Be careful.”
I snorted. “You too.”
Getting into class, already the other alphas were there from the other school. I shouldn’t have been surprised, but the thick coating of their scent in the room made me want to turn and run in the other direction. Or throw up. One of the other.
Unfortunately, I was shoved through the doors with others appearing for the class behind me.
I took a deep breath, trying to ignore the overwhelming scents of the alpha students surrounding me. I found an empty seat towards the back of the classroom and sank into it, willing myself to focus on the lesson despite the distraction of their presence.
And the feeling of a very specific alpha’s eyes on me.
I glanced over to the other side of the room where Lucas sat. He offered a small smile and lifted his hand an inch off his lap so no one would see. It almost was a wave.
Sort of.
I shook my head, not returning it as the teacher called us to attention and began to talk about pack dynamics and hierarchy.
My mind drifted back to Benjamin once more. I couldn’t stop thinking about him and the fact that one toe was out of line and maybe that was it.
All of this was over.
Every chance I had was over here to do anything. But I still had to court, didn’t I? That was part of the bargain. And that couldn’t just mean Ben, right? I didn’t know a lot about courting, but I did know that whenever it was written in books, there were dates with multiple alphas–of course, in books the omega got tochoose and everyone lived happily ever after and not under the famous piercing Davinson gaze that looked more threatening than comforting.
I doubted he even knew how to purr.
And I… I realized I liked it when I experienced an alpha’s pur. I liked it a lot and now I was taken away from Liam and Marko and Demetri and would never have that again.
Tears pressed against the back of my eyes.
I bit the inside of my cheek.
Stop it.I chastised myself.
But I also couldn’t help it.
What if Lidya went with Adam to Prestford house and they… didn’t want me? I still couldn’t understand why no one had shown up yet. They knew I was here. They had to after Lidya told her alphas.
Yet nothing.
Soon enough, if that was the case, I needed to figure out what to do on my own with or without help. Because I couldn’t go back to Benjamin and his family. Not again.
For me.
For my brother.
I bit the inside of my cheek harder.