Page 114 of Ruthless God

“Where were you going? You’re such a fucking coward. I don’t know why I wanted to impress you all my life. You destroyed everyone’s lives and didn’t give any fucks about it. I should have killed you a long time ago.”

“Everyone is a dollar sign, Snow. You will see that when you’re older. Falling for this bi—”

That’s enough, I don’t want to hear any more, so I walk up to him and punch him in the face. My small knuckles sting, but I don’t care. Revi holds his face as I walk back to Snow.

“That’s all you got, bitch? I should have kidnapped you myself, used your body however I wanted, and allowed my men to take turns on you. Then have my son watch. You whore.”

Snow grabs a zip tie from his back pocket and ties his father’s hands up.

“You will never get away with what you’re about to do to me,” he says. “The FBI will hunt you down like the dogs you are, and you will be in jail.”

Snow yanks a fistful of Revi’s dyed hair. “Your business partners know what you did to Bailey, and they are going to help us cover up your death. They told us to do what we have to do to get rid of you.”

For the first time, his father is completely speechless, panic coloring his face. I’ve never seen him look so scared in my entire life.

“Please, don’t kill me. I’ll give you more money than you can imagine.”

Snow hands me the gun, his palm gentle against my cheek. “Do you want to be the one to pull the trigger, Blue?”

I look at him in complete shock, my mouth hanging open. “You would let me pull the trigger?”

He nods. “It’s not just my revenge, it’s your revenge too, Blue. I killed Carter, but you can have my father. I saved him for you.”

Now I’m the one who’s speechless. He’s really trying to include me in his plans and is allowing me to kill him, not leaving me in the dark. I know how badly he wanted to get his revenge on his father and be the one to end his life. I never thought he would sacrifice his own need to make me happy. For the first time, I feel heard and seen. For the first time, he’s putting me first.

“I never killed anyone, Snow.”

“Don’t worry about it, my wife. I’ll walk you through it. But I have to warn you, you won’t be the same, Lyrical, if you do this.”

“I know.”

I really do. I know once I shoot Revi that my life will never be the same and that’s okay. I accepted what I have to do and I already know how my future might be. It might make me go mad and I might be fine, but it doesn’t matter because getting revenge will be worth it in the end. Justice for Bailey will be worth it.

I stare at Revi, and I see the fear in his eyes and, for a second, I hesitate, because part of me knows he’s a human being, but when I remember how poorly he treated Bailey, death is the only way to stop the bastard.

Snow shows me how to aim as I place the gun against Revi’s forehead. Fighting the urge to close my eyes, I pull the trigger.

Once we get back to the farmhouse, my father is waiting in the foyer, and I hug him tight.

“It’s been done,” Snow tells my father.

“Good,” he answers after kissing me on the cheek.

He takes one good look at the blood and bits of Revi’s guts all over my face and clothes, gritting his teeth.

“You allowed my daughter to get anywhere near a gun and a dead body?”

“Fath—”

“Yes. She wanted to. An—”

“I don’t give a fuck,” my father snaps.

“If she wants to help me get revenge on someone, then she’s allowed to.” Snow keeps his eyes glued to me. “What she wants will always come first, even before me.”

His words make me melt, and I want to kiss him but the smell of Revi’s blood starts to make my head swim. I need to clean myself, so without a word, I head to my bedroom and remove my bloody clothes before hopping in the shower.

The scorching hot water runs down my body, and I feel numb. I ignore the throbbing stitches on my side and calf. I actually killed someone, and I don’t feel any remorse for what I did to Revi. He deserved it. Snow told me that killing someone would change me, and it has. I see this world in darker and grayer colors; the world is as cruel as I once thought it was. I’m both exhausted and relieved from the events which recently happened.

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