Page 69 of Mud

I did. He slipped his arm underneath me and hugged me to his chest, then reached between our bodies with his other hand to position his cock in front of my entrance.

He started slow, pressing against me gently, moving the tip of him up and down my folds, teasing my clit until I forgot what was about to happen, and the fear melted away into raw pleasure.

His touch was out of this world, and the idea of his cock touching me down there made me moan harder, so I bit his shoulder to try to keep it down. He didn’t complain if ithurt him, so I kept on doing it, and the more he played with me, the more my hips moved, the more my muscles loosened, the more I wanted to feel him all the way inside me.

But when he brought himself down to my entrance again, and this time thrust his hips hard, it still hurt.

I bit onto his skin with all my strength to keep from screaming, and all the pleasure ran from me, replaced by red-hot pain. It was mind blowing, like being cut open with a sharp blade that was also on fire.

“Breathe, sweetness, breathe,” Taland kept whispering in my ear. “It’s over, just breathe with me.”

So, I breathed, and I tried to calm my racing heart and slow the thoughts in my head. I focused on him, on his body, holding onto him just like he said.

Little by little, I began to feel him.

Insideme. Taland was inside me, and we were completely connected, our bodies one. It had hurt like hell but now that we weren’t moving, just taking a moment to let my body relax, it didn’t anymore.

In fact, the idea of being like this with him erased any trace of pain I had within seconds.

It’s over.I was no longer a virgin, and no matter what happened tomorrow, I couldn’t be happier that Taland had been my first. No matter what happened tomorrow, in those moments, I wished with all my being that he was my last, too—and only.

“Was it bad?” he whispered in my ear, slowly raising his head, planting kisses on my cheek as he did, until we were face to face.

“It was…yep, pretty bad,” I said because I couldn’t bring myself to lie right now.

Taland smiled, but it was a sad smile for once, one I’dnever seen on him before. “I’m sorry, sweetness. It couldn’t be avoided.”

“Don’t be,” I reassured him. “I’m perfectly fine.”

“It won’t hurt so much anymore,” he said.

“I don’t care.” And really—I didn’t. Not even a little bit.

“Try to relax your muscles for me,” he said, his lips pressed to mine, though we didn’t kiss.

And slowly, he began to move out of me.

It was painful, not going to lie. A lot more than I thought it would be, actually, but the pain faded way. Taland took his time, gently sliding in and out of me, and I had no idea if I’d bled or what the hell was happening down there, but he held my focus by keeping his eyes locked on mine every second, until he stretched me wide enough that I barely felt pain when he moved.

Until I felt all the pleasure.

“I can’t hold back much longer,” he told me a couple of minutes in, and I nodded because I wanted to see him come, too. I’d imagined it so many times. It was one of my favorite fantasies.

“Are you on the spell?” Again, I nodded. Madeline had had Poppy and me on a Whitefire spell that prevented pregnancy since our fifteenth birthdays. We got it every year on the clock.

“Good. I want to come inside you so badly,” he whispered, closing his eyes, resting his forehead to mine. “Hold onto me, sweetness. Bite as hard as you can, but tomorrow I’m buying a ward.”

I flinched. “Does it hurt?” I’d made a mess of his shoulder with my teeth—a bloody mess. Of course, it hurt.

“Fuck no,” Taland said. “But I’m gonna need to hear you screaming. Something tells me it’s going to be my favorite sound of all, too.”

I closed my eyes, still embarrassed, though half of it had faded. “Then by all means, buy a ward.”

He continued to move, picking up the speed, and it still hurt a little bit, but most of it was lost to the blinding pleasure feeling him so deep inside me brought. We went like that for a little longer, and then Taland came, moaning that sexy sound, eyes squeezed shut and my bottom lip between his teeth.

It was better than my fantasies, better than anything I could have ever imagined. Toseehis pleasure so clearly and to know that I gave it to him fulfilled me in a way I never knew I could be fulfilled.

And that’s how I lost my virginity to the guy I love.

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