Smiling softly at her, I tried to convey my issues as clearly as possible. “I’m not sure what is wrong doctor. I’ve been feeling ill for a couple of days now. I have nausea, stomachache, back pain, and I can’t seem to be able to keep anything in.”
She nodded, wrote something in the file, and then smiled at me as she spoke. “May I ask if you’ve been sexually active recently?”
My cheeks heated as I thought back to the evening with Konstantin. I couldn’t get a word out as my throat closed up. So, I simply nodded.
“Okay, I am going to do some tests. Then we can see what the issue is.” She added as she stood up.
She opened the door and called the nurse, who took me down a short hall. Opening a door to the side. I noticed it ledto a toilet. She handed me a small beaker and gently pushed me inside. “Place it on the tray by the door when you’re done. Then return to the doctor’s office,” she instructed before closing the door behind me.
I did as I was told and returned to the office. The doctor wasn’t there when I returned, so I sat down and waited. I didn’t wait long before the doctor returned. She walked in and sat back down. She was smiling broadly, which made me a bit uneasy.
“Good news,” she said. “You’re pregnant.”
I swore my heart stopped as the words left her lips. My skin felt cold, and my breath disappeared for a second. Good news, my mind shouted. How could she think it was good news? She didn’t even know me.
I sat staring at her as tears welled up in my eyes. They burned, threatening to burst out should I open my mouth. I was stunned. I wasn’t equipped to raise a child. No work, no income, no support. My mind was running a marathon as I tried to absorb the news.
“Are you okay?” I hear the doctor saying beside me. I had not even noticed her getting up. Glancing at her, I shook my head, indicating I was fine even though I was exploding inside.
She patted my shoulder as I stood. “If there is anything you need to know, simply ask,” she said as I headed for the door. I had to get out; I needed fresh air. It felt like the walls were closing in and was about to squash me like a bug.
Opening the door, I turned back to her. “Thank you,” I breathed out before leaving.
Suddenly, I was standing on the curb, hailing a cab. Glancing back at the building, I shook my head. I couldn’t recallhow I got outside. I jumped into the cab as it pulled up and hastily gave my address to the driver.
As he pulled away, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. This couldn’t be true. It can’t be happening, I told myself, feeling my insides shatter. The cab came to a sudden stop.
“That’ll be twenty-three dollars fifty, miss,” the driver said, looking back at me.
Taking money from my wallet, I paid him and got out. I didn’t know how long I had been standing on the curb when I felt a hand closing around my arm. “Hey, sweetie, are you okay? What did the doctor say? You never called?” Anucha huffed next to me.
Looking into her eyes and seeing the concern, I could no longer keep the tears in. “I’m pregnant,” I uttered between breaths as my tears flowed.
Anucha pulled me into her arms and hugged me tight. As my tears flowed, I shook. My heart was heavy, and I didn’t know what I was going to do. Once I started calming down, we went inside. She made coffee and sat with me for a while.
We didn’t speak; we just sat and drank our coffee. She rinsed the cups and promised to check in on me the next day before she left. It was dark outside and inside by the time I snapped out of my trance. I wasn’t sure how long I sat at the small table. But I knew my body didn’t appreciate it.
As I rose, I felt my muscles cramping; everything was sore. I took a bath and crawled into bed. Once the sun came up, I would figure it out, I told myself as I fell asleep.
By the time I woke up, it was almost noon. I was about to put my clothes in the washer when I found a folded paper inthe pocket. It was a prescription from the doctor for vitamins. I couldn’t recall when she gave it to me, but took it with me.
After pouring a glass of juice, I sat down at the table with a pen and paper. I was still upset as I felt I had let my cousin down. I had failed his expectations of me. How was I going to explain this, I thought.
Collecting myself, I knew I had to make the best of the situation. I had to move past my shock and devise a plan for my future. Looking down, I placed my hand on my stomach. And for my child’s future.
After weighing the pros and cons I decided not to even bother looking for Konstantin. I was sure what we shared was merely a one-night stand. I would find a suitable job with good benefits and support us on my own.
Thinking about Konstantin brought back an array of feelings. The sex was phenomenal, and I battled to push him out of my mind. But for my own sanity, I had to focus on the important things now.
After collecting the prescription from the pharmacy, I called Anucha to let her know I was going to be fine. She came over for supper every day for the rest of the week. I started taking vitamins, and medication for nausea. Plus, the other tablets the doctor prescribed that same day.
By the weekend, I started feeling better and resumed my job search. It was around the middle of the next week when I received a strange call. A woman named Alyssa called to confirm an interview with me. I didn’t recognize the company name and felt sure I had not submitted a resume to them. But I couldn’t be picky, so I agreed to the interview.
Friday morning, I got up early and had a good solid breakfast. After doing the dishes, I washed and got dressed. Iwasn’t sure if the company had a specific dress code, so I wore a plain summer dress.
Arriving at the address she gave me, I felt underdressed. The building was huge with glass walls. Walking up the short set of stairs, I admired the architecture. It had a modern design mixed with some Roman and Victorian styles.
As I came to the door, it opened automatically. Stepping in, I felt my breath catching at the immensity of it all. The reception area was as large as a five-star hotel. Walking to the two sets of security scanners, I surveyed the area.