He grabs me and shakes me hard.
I shove him and he staggers backwards.
“You knew I was out there searching for her the whole time, andyouhad her?” Yefim comes at me with his fists clenched.
I shove him again.
Oleg and Leon are between us, trying to separate us.
“What the fuck do you even care?” I snarl.
“Are you fucking kidding me? Giorgio is on a mission to tear apart the person who kidnapped his niece, and—you fucking asshole—he has vowed to take down the kidnapper's entire family.Your family, Alexei.”
His words slam into me.
I stop, dead still, frozen in place.
"He’s—he’s after the family?”
“Your family,” Yefim repeats.
Guilt floods into me. Thick, like oil, clogging my veins, suffocating me.
What the fuck have I done?
I didn’t ever mean for my family to be involved in this. I didn’t ever mean to put them in harm’s way. This isn’t what I wanted.
I take a few steps backwards, my mind ringing loudly. I can’t seem to pull my thoughts together.
“Alexei, are you ok?” Oleg steps towards me with his arms out, a submissive gesture. Leon and Yefim are watching closely.
“How could you not realize that, man?” Leon asks.
“I—I didn’t think—" I mumble.
“Yeah. Because you always act impulsively. Fuck, man. We don’t want anything to happen to you, and we need to take care of our family. Us. Anya.”
“Yeah," I nod, mumbling, falling into a heavy silence.
My heart is so heavy I place my hand over my chest to try and hold it in place. It feels like it might topple right out of my chest.
“Can someone take me home?” I ask after a long moment.
“Alexei, we can’t…"
“No, it’s fine. I won’t do anything stupid. It was stupid. It was so fucking stupid of me, guys. I am so sorry. Honestly.”
Leon nods. He can see the genuine pain of my guilt.
“Take him home.”
“My place in the city,” I mumble.
Oleg pulls his car door open again and I climb inside.
I don’t say a word as he drives me home.
Clara is lost to me.